I've been pretty out of it this week so I finally went to the doctor yesterday. I can't really hear in my right ear very well and I thought I had fluid and he said that there isn't anything - it's probably just something that happens from blowing my nose too hard. He said to just buy Robutussin for my throat and some medicine called Actifed and to get some rest. I don't know why but I've been pretty exhausted. We keep going though, we haven't canceled any lessons or anything. Sorella Bucco is feeling a little sick, no surprise since we're companions. The doctor did say it was viral, whatever I have so I don't know what that means, but either way we're both a little off.
We've had some lessons with people who have baptismal dates and it's been great. We met with an African family and they have such great faith and desire to do right. I have never heard someone read the scriptures with as much passion as the husband does. There has been an issue with her pregnancy and she was given a priesthood blessing, and I don't think I have ever felt the Spirit come so forcefully and so completely in one specific moment. It was incredibly powerful. We know that all will be well because of how strong her faith is.
We had pizza at a restaurant yesterday for lunch and it was lovely. We sat outside and we could hear someone play the accordion, and the buildings and shops added a cool atmosphere. Pizza here is thinner, but they give you a whole pizza and it's just for you. I ate pizza with a knife and fork like a real Italian ha ha.
You will like it here. Again, what do you all think of coming here when after the Rome temple is built? That way we can see all the sights and go to the temple and that way, we won't have to pay for double tickets, because I'd like to come back when it's built so that I can go.
I know I am supposed to be here. I know that God called me to be here for a reason. I am a missionary because I promised Him I would help his children. A member said to our investigators in a lesson this week, ...(she was explaining a dream and this is regards to why she decided to serve a mission) she said (piu o meno), I am going to serve a mission because God called me and I answered Him.
That's how I feel. That's how I've felt, and its a special feeling. He asked me to be here. He told me I need to be here, and I know that. Right now, I'm having a really hard time figuring out why I am here, and for whom.
I know life is a process. It's kind of like glass-blowing I guess. To get the desired effect and shape, you need to form the glass and put it in the fire time after time after time. And, if I'm not mistaken, those who are righteous are tried the most. I don't think I'm being all that righteous right now, but being tried helps change my desires I guess. It's a process, and the end results are always worth the work.
I know I am here where I am supposed to be.
I love you all. Thank you for your letters and letting me know what's going on.
I love you each so much. Thank you for loving me too. Keep going. Don't you ever give up.
Until next week,
Sorella Carlock
