The Last Days

Since my last post, I have finished the semester at LDSBC, and traveled home.  I've been home for 1 1/2 weeks.  It's been so great to be home.  I love my house, my mom and sister, being in New Jersey, and waking up in my own room.  It's nice because I feel refreshed and renewed.

I guess I should be honest about something, though.  I haven't been completely productive while I've been here so far.  I've definitely done more than I normally do when I'm at home, but there is always room for improvement.

• In 4 1/2 days, I will be an endowed member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.  
• In 6 1/2 days, I will be set apart as a full-time missionary for a period of 18 months to serve the people living in the Italy Milan mission area.  
• In 8 1/2 days, I will be leaving New Jersey to travel to the Provo Missionary Training Center.  
• In 9 1/2 days, May 1st, I will officially start my missionary training in the MTC.

My time as Zoë Carlock is almost at an end.  I don't feel sad or anything.  I feel anxious and afraid.  I'm afraid that I won't be good enough, or I'll want to come home, or (even worse) I'll just be an awful missionary.  I do know that if I work hard enough, I will be the missionary I am supposed to be.  Through Jesus Christ, I can be all that I need to be.  That thought helps me feel less afraid.

I will not have to travel alone.  I have Christ with me every step of the way, and that puts this journey into perspective.  I can see that the right way is full of light and love because it is the path of Christ.  

Those who know and feel of this light are blessed beyond their knowledge.  I am glad to be one of them.  I am so privileged to be able to call myself a representative of Christ.  I will teach and serve and love in His stead.  I will be an instrument which the Lord can use to save the souls of others.  

This work is a work of love, and I am so ready to love these people.  This is the best accomplishment I can have, and I thank God every day for allowing me to accomplish this task.

Again I'll say, as I have probably said before, if you have any desires to serve a mission, pray.  Heavenly Father wants us to let Him guide us through life.  He listens when we pray; He will answer your prayers, just as He did mine.  Let Him be your Father.  Place your trust in Him.