Hi. How are you?
Is it starting to be spring there like it is here?
I'm not wearing a jacket. It's great.
Whats new? What have you been up to?
You know what, I forgot to email you last week. I didn't forget but I forgot to email you about Liam. I'm sorry. How are you doing?
This week has been a rough week...just completely draining and I've had a rough time...more internally than externally.
Then I come to do internet and its been an explosion of strengthening words, miracles, expressions of love, etc. It definitely helps. It does.
Sometimes I guess life needs to be hard...men are that they might have joy, but if men hadn't fallen and experiencing pain...they wouldn't know love and peace...so here I am, learning joy and peace! Ha ha
So I took Wes Avery's advice and I have been trying to find things to keep from after-the-mission trophies, I guess.
I bought Alice in Wonderland and I am getting it rebound..so that I can read it with Eva, and then eventually to my children as a children's bedtime book.
I am also trying to find little handcrafted or ...just personal things that will make me feel happy I served here and make me enjoy it. Everything is fairly cheap though...except shoes and clothes...when it comes to price for all of these things. Meno male.
I'm reading the part in your email that talks about your summer schedule and I'm looking at the dates and thinking ''thats all wrong, there is no 27th month''. Ha ha, in Europe the do day then month and so I was thinking ''backwards'' I guess. There are little things like that that make it all the more interesting.
For your 2 different programs. I don't know what to tell you either. I would say the one that causes less strain...but that's just me.. You have so much to do already, maybe taking the calmer class will help you. Just pray and 'go with your gut'. I wish I was there to sit and talk to you about all of these things.
I have a few quesitons.
If Tanner is going to be in school in the fall, he'll be in school when you need to come pick me up. How are we going to do that?
I also have a question about my face. I dont want to have giant pores on my nose...makeup.it sucks, but is so great.
Are there any good cleansing tricks to help me shrink my pores and clean them out well?
Let me know
Well I dont have much to say. Im going to keep going. My companion is really helping me, just getting down to the core and walking with me, if you know what I mean-
I'm going to get through this because I have to...in the sense that I can't just let it go. I am not a perfect missionary...I dont do street contacting/forever finding. I am not filled with charity in the way that I would like to be..I can't just blurt out, ''there is a living prophet today''. I wish I was better and I pray every day to be filled with charity and love and courage. I really, REALLY want to get better though, and for that I cannot give up. I have to keep going. I know I can be better. I just have to act-..and thats where I'm stumped. I just have to try.
So this is where I am right now. I'm really getting down to all the crevices of my soul ha ha, and I'm getting it all out there this week, or at least it feels that way. I know I am not alone. I know there is so much love and support and guidance. I'm going to be really changed after this whole process. It'll be worth it.
My new journal is going really great. and my 'keepsake' journal is coming along too. I have received a lot of revelation and I'm putting them in that journal so that I can remember everything.
You know...(even before I came out and especially now) I dont know the full reason for why I am here...but that's ok. I'll know at the end. I'm learning patience and humility...and its going to be great. Dont give up on me though ha ha.
I know that God lives. I know it. I know Jesus, the Christ, knows exactly how I feel and that is comforting
>speaking of Jesus, how can we prepare as a family to enjoy Easter more fully? What can we study. I've been reading in Jesus the Christ and it really opened my eyes.
study plan!?
Thank you for your emails and the song and your words, love, and prayers. Thank you.
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About Lucy, we went to their house on Sunday and I forgot my camera. I'll get a picture though, dont you worry. She is just sweet as can be, bold in a little girl kind of way, smart, fun. We played some game of cups together and I just ....I just love her.
The people...Italy is intense and crazy and so much full of sin and sadness...but the people, the good and honest people make it worth it.
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Today we are going to Nervi again, but this time to a different part. it's beautiful.
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I'm losing weight! My double chin from pasta is going away. No more pasta here on Via Cantore! Not worth it. Plus the fruit stand guy where we buy our produce gives us extra fruit and veggies for free sooo...can't complain here.
I'm sorry for all of the snow, but like you said..snow is melting, spring is coming....Easter is coming soon, and General Conference..best part of the year. There is hope yet! Ha ha.
I love you all-..I'm sorry my email is all jubbly today- I'm fine. I promise. Sometimes you just have to purge a little, get all of the gunk out and then its ok. I'm getting the gunk out of my character. It's great! ...it will be ha ha.
I love you
I love hearing from you, every little thing. All of it.
I know that this is the work of the Lord and I know it is true and just.
This is life eternal. This, like Tanney says, is REAL life. I get it now.
I know we are children of God and that He wants us all to simply be happy, follow His plan, and eventually return to Him. This is what its all about.
Keep smiling
Keep going
As Dory says, and Sorella Harward and McCann, just keep swimming.
It can only get better.
Sorella Carlock
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