My hands are practically numb as I type because the door of this little hole-in-the-wall internet place is open. Also, it might snow today, so the world is practically ending! Ha ha just kidding.
But, it's cold. It doesn't snow much here.
I am happy. I am healthy. I think I am losing weight....I don't know. I am getting stronger, if not losing weight, then losing fat. I have a lot of muscles. I feel strong and powerful but not in like a body builder way.
I'm trying to learn to appreciate my body more, it is really a marvelous thing to have a body.
We are having a lot of success is Genova. We have an investigator who is elect, ready, so prepared...words cannot describe her. ...also a bonus, she looks like Audrey Hepburn and speaks English because she lives in London when she isn't in Genova.....I so badly want you to meet her.
She feels the spirit so strongly and she searches for truth and light. She has been thrown a lot of bad stuff but she keeps going and searching and ...finding! I love her.
We are working hard with the ward and we are all doing it together. The work is moving forward. I feel so much more fulfilled.
I have been wearing my glasses for this whole week. I like it because I feel more put together and more cute, I guess. Sometimes as a missionary, you just kind of feel dumpy. ha ha. Part of life, I guess.
Nine months on Saturday. wow- I've --become a so much better version of me. I have learned how to really pray and feel the Spirit. I have followed God's plan for me. I have become more of who I want to be.
I have only a half left as a full-time missionary....I mean this with all sincerity...I do not want to come home. I don't want to leave, I could do this forever...maybe with a weekend break to have you come here to visit, but I want to keep doing this.
In italian, an RM is called an ex-missionary.....i hate that. If you really commit, you never un-become a missionary- you just become a full-time member missionary- if you did everything within the right spirit. I truly believe that. Its a high standard, but the Celestial Kingdom is the highest glory, so it evens out.
Well, Mommy, I have realized this week that I am becoming you!
Meno male (it means 'less bed', so in this case it would be like phew, not too bad)
I do things that you do or phrase things the way you would.
The apple doesn't fall too far from the tree, and you're a good tree so I think I'm ok-
As a proper missionary, here is my invite for the week. This just pooped into my head.....listen to church music, efy. whatever else...if you have a negative thought, recite the first vision...
'I saw a pillar of light exactly over my head above the brightness of the sun
which descended gradually until it fell upon me. When the light rested upon me,
I saw 2 personages, whose brightness and glory defy all description standign above me in the air.
One of them spake unto me, calling me by name and said, pointing to the other- This is My Beloved Son, Hear Him!'
OR quote another scripture
sometimes when I cant sleep or a feel scared or I need to feel happy, I recite that or sing a song like they say to do in primary.
The thing that brings me the most hope is the first vision, it testifies of the strength of faith and personal revelation.
Whatever. It may help you.
I am so grateful for Heavenly Father being such a huge part of the plan that He created for me. I am grateful for His love and the warmth of His light and the Light that is His Son, Jesus the Christ.
He has healed me, molded me, and refined me.
There is a song I like and it says the mistakes of the past don't define you, they refine you,
and its true, you make a mistake and its like a huge piece of you just was ripped away, like you cant be made whole, but in reality, all the mistakes leave the finer surface exposed.
Diamonds are made with lots of heat and pressure for a looong period of time.
You're mistakes or weaknesses are shaping YOU! You can become a different person through the love and grace of Jesus Christ
My new favorite scripture is Moroni 10: 32
Come unto Christ and be perfected in Him!
That is my other invite. Let Him in! Let Him help you and love you, like only He can!
For my halfway mark, on Saturday we will go to a little cafe or foccacceria and sit and relax and just be in Italy for lunch. I just want to sit back and enjoy the changes I've seen in myself and all those around me. The world just has a different light now and its worth admiring.
I love you, my dear ones, all of you.
Thank you for supporting me and loving me.
Don't you ever give up, there is always a way out...it's usually through Jesus Christ. After all, that is what He was sent to do. To lift up His people and heal their wounds.
I know He lives, I know with as much surety as one with faith in Him can have. I have not seen Him, but I don't need to. I have felt His cleansing power and it has healed me.
Clean through and through...
That is my missionary message. He lives, He has shown us the way, He heals all wounds, and He waits for us at the gate to accept Him.
I know this message is true. I have lived it and watched it change the hearts of men. I have seen miracles here in Italy...and they still keep coming.
I love OUR Father in Heaven with all that I am...and I am learning how to love Him even more. I love OUR Saviour and Redeemer.
And I love you, Tanney! Evie! Mommy!
You are the greatest treasure of this life.
Know that I love you and pray for you. Know that you are not alone!
I love you,
Sorella Carlock
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