Ciao carissimi.
Come state?
This week has been better. I feel like a new person, and I believe that I am becoming new. Nothing is perfect, ovvio, but I feel happier and like my burdens are being made light. I hope that Heavenly Father is also making me stronger. I feel like this week has been a week of re-committing. A lot of attitude changing and a lot of new understanding.
Sooo...
I really do feel like my relationship with my companion is really switching from companion to friend. We don't have to agree all the time to be friends (you can like different things and still be in love, says mom) but that means you can ENJOY THE DIFFERENCES AND LEARN.
I have learned a lot.
I feel like this week Heavenly Father has helped me to see myself and my life in more of an eternal light. I have seem a small portion of the glory and peace of His kingdom...fortunately, that means a little refiner's fire.. the result of that fire is His kingdom, and the peace of knowing we did our part. I have found more resolve to do my part. I feel better when I act and I know that if I do act, not that I haven't before, but if I do act I will be given strength - spiritual and physical. I have been trying to do my best but I haven't been as willing or excited as I should have been. I've been complaining and that made me unable to see the importance of our agency.
If we choose to follow God reluctantly, just like Mormon..or is it Moroni?..says, it means the same as if we don't follow Him at all. I have been trying to follow Him willingly, and I have been praying for that for so long.
My eyes have been opened and I see the world differently. These people CHOSE to be here on Earth. They don't know that they chose to come here. They don't know the blessings of that choice, but I do. I know what it will be like, in a limited way, to feel of the peace of His kingdom. They don't. Not it is only my duty, but it is my joy...it is how I find joy...to help them even have the choice to hear this plan- I WANT to do everything in my power and help them see the future more clearly.
---We had stake conference this week. GUESS...just guess what cool thing happened. It was a Europe-wide stake conference broadcast, where we had 3 very important speakers. Linda S Reeves, Neil L Andersen, and President Dieter F Uchtdorf. A live broadcast from the Bern Switzlerland stake center. Wow, what an experience. They said things like ''you have a part in the Restoration of the church in Italy'', ''nothing good comes without sacrifice'', ''blessings after the trials''...As they spoke I felt a little bit of the pain and darkness of the last few weeks just lift away.
Oh man, I am so happy. I feel like have never felt before. I feel clean and pure and light.. I feel light. feel re-committed. I feel more closely and strongly tied to my Heavenly Father. We also spent the mornings of this past week listening to General Conference and that has been a great help.
I am trying to take all of the advice that you have given, to pray more gratefully and humbly, and to just be happy. I am really trying to give it my all. We haven't seen more success this week than the last weeks but I feel successful in myself. My heart has been changed!
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Another cool thing, soo...you know how we have Zone Leaders and Sister Training Leaders? Well, Sorella Strong, my MTC companion is my STL. and we're doing a scambio together tomorrow...which just happens to be our year mark of being in Italy. Kind of exciting!
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Eva I really think your camp thing is perfect. I think that those ideas and insights that you learned will really help me continue on the up-and-up, and not drift back. I printed out the email and I'm going to write out a plan when we get home. I am so happy that you were able to do something that will help you become stronger, and that is helping me.
I like the idea of envisioning the end...because I strongly believe that we cant have success unless we know what we want success to look like. then we can plan each step and then take each step.
Thank you for helping me have some sort of source to go to. This will really help me not be so stressed but be calm.
Tanney thank you for the things that you said. You are such a blessing and a help to me.
Mommy, you are so special and you have always been on my side. Thank you for sticking with me, even when didn't deserve it.. Thank you for teaching me about the nature of our Saviour and Heavenly Father.
I love you all sooo much. I think of you and pray for you. I do miss you and I am so excited to see you at the end. Its going to be a good day!
Have you planned anything else out?
Let me know!
Love you!
Sorella Lo
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