Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Seventy-eight: October 29, 2014 Bologna THE FINAL POST FROM ITALIA
Here I am. My last full day in Bologna and my last P-Day. I'm in the same internet point that we always go to and yet again I'm crying. Not because I feel inadequate or because I need support to keep going. I am filled with a peace and a love and a joy that makes me feel just so happy.
I have done what I needed to do.
There is a special talk by President Eyring. In the talk he says ''it is hard to know when we have done enough to know that the Atonement has changed us."
It has taken me 18 months to know, but I am certain in my belief and right down to my soul that I have been changed for good. I am not a fence-sitter. I am firm in the faith.
Thank you so much for your support and faith in me and in the Lord. Thank you for your emails, your cheers and possible tears given on my behalf. Its been a hard time, but Ive fought the good fight, and Im so close to the finish line. I will return with honor. It's ALMOST over.
Constantly in the past week I have been receiving little confirmations from the Lord that He is pleased with me. Through the members, complete strangers, other missionaries, the scriptures, my companion, and just simply by the way I feel. I feel strong. I feel tall. I feel calm and peaceful.
I'm going to cry like a baby when I leave. I'll probably cry for a few weeks, or forever. I won't know how to be a normal person. I'll have to find myself, but the ground I'm on is solid enough that I know where to start and where to look for my guide.
I don't have much to say this week because all of the things I want to say will sound a lot better in person. 2 days. 'Im excited. I haven't felt excited until I sat down to do internet, but I'm excited. Never trunky, but I'm ready because its time.
OK so....I also don't want to get thrown back into the world right away. I went to sit at home and enjoy my family. I might want to go out to eat, or maybe just take a drive to Eagle Rock and eat some Watchung Deli sandwiches. That sounds like a good idea. I really don't know what I'll want to do. I think what I really want to do might be this...
I get to the airport and we reunite :)
We go home and I drop off my stuff
We go to the deli and get some sandwiches
We go to Eagle Rock and sit and talk
Then we go home and read the scriptures together (I might need to finish my 3rd time in Italian. I have about 140 pages left and I have to finish before I am released. So we can read in Italian.. :)
I want to sing hymns and read scriptures and talk about Jesus and the mission and I want to show you all of the weird things about me. I'll let you poke fun at my bad English and I just want to be at home.
Originally, I wanted Eva to plan for me to go out with the sister missionaries so that I could still be a missionary and preach at home, but I think I just want to be home for a little. Just relax and not feel the pressure to do anything. I want to feel the Spirit with you while I am still a missionary and have that be that.
Calm. Quiet. Us together.
It's going to be weird leaving Italy. I have lived and learned and done so much here. I am going to have a hard time making the switch. I don't really understand music or movies or internet, other than church stuff. I did, however, buy the DVD of the Lion King in Italian and since we watched a Disney movie for Christmas, I feel OK watching the Lion King after being set apart -- to practice my Italian it'll be good, too. I don't really want to listen or watch anything. Maybe the 17 Miracles movie, but piano piano (little by little) to help me ease back in.
I am so excited for this youth conference. And, I am more excited that the girls are excited for me. That makes me feel good. My biggest worry when I get home is that I'll have no one and I'll become one of those kids that just hangs around town after they've graduated high school. I know that's not true, but fear and Satan tell me its a possibility. I am glad people are looking forward to me coming home and that I can be a good example for them. I think it'll be perfect for me.
Thanks for making the doctor's appointment. I'm so ready to be fixed. Also, I REALLY want to go to the temple, really badly, can we do that fairly soon after I get home?
I want to get my hair cut and nails done as well so that I feel normal and not like such a slob ha ha. But I WILL pay for that on my own. I'll work doing something and I'll pay for that.
Also, I just remembered. Please tell Sister Newman that I loved her letter and I would've sent one back but I'll get there quicker than the letter. Tell her thank you for thinking of me.
--
Well, I cant think of anything else. This is it. I've done what I could do, and the Lord helped me do more. I feel like a good missionary. I don't doubt that anymore. I feel good about who I am, what I have done, and who I can become.
Just don't think I'm fat when I get home. I just need some time to exercise and I'll be in good shape in no time. :)
I love you sooooo much.
I love you and I cant wait to see you, kiss you, hug you, and cry over our grand victory!
We did it together. We are not only sealed by the covenant but we are sealed together by our triumph. We did it.
Never give up. Never.
Sorella Carlock
I have done what I needed to do.
There is a special talk by President Eyring. In the talk he says ''it is hard to know when we have done enough to know that the Atonement has changed us."
It has taken me 18 months to know, but I am certain in my belief and right down to my soul that I have been changed for good. I am not a fence-sitter. I am firm in the faith.
Thank you so much for your support and faith in me and in the Lord. Thank you for your emails, your cheers and possible tears given on my behalf. Its been a hard time, but Ive fought the good fight, and Im so close to the finish line. I will return with honor. It's ALMOST over.
Constantly in the past week I have been receiving little confirmations from the Lord that He is pleased with me. Through the members, complete strangers, other missionaries, the scriptures, my companion, and just simply by the way I feel. I feel strong. I feel tall. I feel calm and peaceful.
I'm going to cry like a baby when I leave. I'll probably cry for a few weeks, or forever. I won't know how to be a normal person. I'll have to find myself, but the ground I'm on is solid enough that I know where to start and where to look for my guide.
I don't have much to say this week because all of the things I want to say will sound a lot better in person. 2 days. 'Im excited. I haven't felt excited until I sat down to do internet, but I'm excited. Never trunky, but I'm ready because its time.
OK so....I also don't want to get thrown back into the world right away. I went to sit at home and enjoy my family. I might want to go out to eat, or maybe just take a drive to Eagle Rock and eat some Watchung Deli sandwiches. That sounds like a good idea. I really don't know what I'll want to do. I think what I really want to do might be this...
I get to the airport and we reunite :)
We go home and I drop off my stuff
We go to the deli and get some sandwiches
We go to Eagle Rock and sit and talk
Then we go home and read the scriptures together (I might need to finish my 3rd time in Italian. I have about 140 pages left and I have to finish before I am released. So we can read in Italian.. :)
I want to sing hymns and read scriptures and talk about Jesus and the mission and I want to show you all of the weird things about me. I'll let you poke fun at my bad English and I just want to be at home.
Originally, I wanted Eva to plan for me to go out with the sister missionaries so that I could still be a missionary and preach at home, but I think I just want to be home for a little. Just relax and not feel the pressure to do anything. I want to feel the Spirit with you while I am still a missionary and have that be that.
Calm. Quiet. Us together.
It's going to be weird leaving Italy. I have lived and learned and done so much here. I am going to have a hard time making the switch. I don't really understand music or movies or internet, other than church stuff. I did, however, buy the DVD of the Lion King in Italian and since we watched a Disney movie for Christmas, I feel OK watching the Lion King after being set apart -- to practice my Italian it'll be good, too. I don't really want to listen or watch anything. Maybe the 17 Miracles movie, but piano piano (little by little) to help me ease back in.
I am so excited for this youth conference. And, I am more excited that the girls are excited for me. That makes me feel good. My biggest worry when I get home is that I'll have no one and I'll become one of those kids that just hangs around town after they've graduated high school. I know that's not true, but fear and Satan tell me its a possibility. I am glad people are looking forward to me coming home and that I can be a good example for them. I think it'll be perfect for me.
Thanks for making the doctor's appointment. I'm so ready to be fixed. Also, I REALLY want to go to the temple, really badly, can we do that fairly soon after I get home?
I want to get my hair cut and nails done as well so that I feel normal and not like such a slob ha ha. But I WILL pay for that on my own. I'll work doing something and I'll pay for that.
Also, I just remembered. Please tell Sister Newman that I loved her letter and I would've sent one back but I'll get there quicker than the letter. Tell her thank you for thinking of me.
--
Well, I cant think of anything else. This is it. I've done what I could do, and the Lord helped me do more. I feel like a good missionary. I don't doubt that anymore. I feel good about who I am, what I have done, and who I can become.
Just don't think I'm fat when I get home. I just need some time to exercise and I'll be in good shape in no time. :)
I love you sooooo much.
I love you and I cant wait to see you, kiss you, hug you, and cry over our grand victory!
We did it together. We are not only sealed by the covenant but we are sealed together by our triumph. We did it.
Never give up. Never.
Sorella Carlock
Saturday, October 25, 2014
Seventy-seven: October 22, 2014 Bologna
Here I am again!
How are you all this week?
Is it cold in New Jersey yet?
Yesterday it was really warm but today its freezing...probably only about 50 degrees ha ha.
Anyway...
Its been a good week. I honestly think my prayers have changed it. Ive been more sincere and more willing to just act.
The past 2 transfers, I have felt like Ive had to carry the weight of the entire world. I've felt so weighed down by everything and Ive felt a little confused about some things, but I don't feel that anymore. I feel more light. I feel more hope in everything.
I'm going to be honest. I'm absolutely terrified to come home and I dont feel like I have a lot going for me...but I know that I don't have to see ''the distant scene, one step enough for me''
I know that I am not alone on my path of life. Im scared by the world and I'm afraid of the influence that is has had on my life...but I'm different now. I'm not the same and I'm more aware of how I can overcome these trials and temptations. I know what I'm doing now because I'm not lukewarm. I've made my choice about who I will serve and I'm sticking with it.
One thing that I have been able to experience a lot while being out and in life in general, is the idea of standing alone; in being obedient or righteous or following God. I know what doing the right feels like even when everyone else isn't doing the same thing, and even if they are those who should be doing the same. I know that I've chosen the right team, diciamo, and this is the winning team.
This is my last week in the mission. I feel like its OK to talk about it now...I mean. Really though, this is the end. That sits like a weight on my chest and I know I'm going to have such a hard time coming home. Its going to be so different. I've never felt the Spirit like this before, this strongly and consistently. Ive never been so...just..at peace with who I am. I'm going to miss it every day. Its going to be really hard. On the other hand, I know its a part of life and that I have other important things to do.
We did get to see that investigator that we thought was dead...she's not dead! She also lives with e friend now and she became another investigator! Our goal for this month is 12- we're at 3...but I think we can get close. We're just trying to do what we can and as much of it as possible. Im not going to try to make a big hooplah like we have to do something big or grand...I just want to do missionary work and continue to feel that missionary spirit.
I love this work. I love it so much.
Im so glad you sent me a picture of Grandma! Happy Birthday Grandma!!
Im excited to hear about all of the things you write about each week in person. I am so grateful for all of your help and support and love and funny stories and moments of triumph.
We've done it together!
We did it!
Well....there is still time... I keep singing in my head 'I have much work to do' (the hymn) but in Italian... I don't know it in English.
---
I am so down for the Kirtland, OH trip...Im going to be way tired, but I need to do it to have something to do and look forward to.
Also if you could plan a day when we can go to the temple in my first week home...that would be great seeing as I haven't been in a year and a half.
I got the email about November 1st with President Jensen. I'm not excited about it but I am glad that its not Friday and that I have some time to adjust while I'm still a missionary.
Id really like to go on splits with the sisters in our ward if EVA could set that up, that would be awesome.
---
I'm glad you got to see Meet the Mormons. I really want to see it.
You always do all of these fun things! I'm so happy that you're doing some good things. I'm excited to do them with you.
I've done what I could here and I continue to do what I can every day while still trying to get better. I've not been perfect, obviously, but I've done what I could. Then the Lord helped me change so that I could do more. I haven't checked out yet. I'm still here, but I'm ready to go home knowing that I did my part and continue to do my part. I have been successful because I have been changed.
---
Also BTW....they only left about a 20 MINUTE layover for me in Heathrow, so its pretty guaranteed that I'll miss that and I won't be home at the time that they said I would be. It took about 2 hours to even get through customs last time, so be aware.
Next week on Wednesday when you email me, it will be my last day in Bologna. if you could send me, all together maybe, something nice I guess, like a picture of you all on Skype together or something that would be much appreciated. Other than that, next week we can talk about the business-y stuff.
I'm here. I'm in the mission field. I stand as a representative of Jesus Christ. I'm all in. This is it! I love this work with everything that I am. It has changed me through and through.
Its going to feel so great to hug you and kiss your faces :)
Please know that I am doing my best, every day, one step at a time.
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love my God, and I am in awe of His mercy in sending me to this Earth so that I could partake of these blessings. The plan is real. Its all real and true and just. I love this work!
Sorella Carlock
How are you all this week?
Is it cold in New Jersey yet?
Yesterday it was really warm but today its freezing...probably only about 50 degrees ha ha.
Anyway...
Its been a good week. I honestly think my prayers have changed it. Ive been more sincere and more willing to just act.
The past 2 transfers, I have felt like Ive had to carry the weight of the entire world. I've felt so weighed down by everything and Ive felt a little confused about some things, but I don't feel that anymore. I feel more light. I feel more hope in everything.
I'm going to be honest. I'm absolutely terrified to come home and I dont feel like I have a lot going for me...but I know that I don't have to see ''the distant scene, one step enough for me''
I know that I am not alone on my path of life. Im scared by the world and I'm afraid of the influence that is has had on my life...but I'm different now. I'm not the same and I'm more aware of how I can overcome these trials and temptations. I know what I'm doing now because I'm not lukewarm. I've made my choice about who I will serve and I'm sticking with it.
One thing that I have been able to experience a lot while being out and in life in general, is the idea of standing alone; in being obedient or righteous or following God. I know what doing the right feels like even when everyone else isn't doing the same thing, and even if they are those who should be doing the same. I know that I've chosen the right team, diciamo, and this is the winning team.
This is my last week in the mission. I feel like its OK to talk about it now...I mean. Really though, this is the end. That sits like a weight on my chest and I know I'm going to have such a hard time coming home. Its going to be so different. I've never felt the Spirit like this before, this strongly and consistently. Ive never been so...just..at peace with who I am. I'm going to miss it every day. Its going to be really hard. On the other hand, I know its a part of life and that I have other important things to do.
We did get to see that investigator that we thought was dead...she's not dead! She also lives with e friend now and she became another investigator! Our goal for this month is 12- we're at 3...but I think we can get close. We're just trying to do what we can and as much of it as possible. Im not going to try to make a big hooplah like we have to do something big or grand...I just want to do missionary work and continue to feel that missionary spirit.
I love this work. I love it so much.
Im so glad you sent me a picture of Grandma! Happy Birthday Grandma!!
Im excited to hear about all of the things you write about each week in person. I am so grateful for all of your help and support and love and funny stories and moments of triumph.
We've done it together!
We did it!
Well....there is still time... I keep singing in my head 'I have much work to do' (the hymn) but in Italian... I don't know it in English.
---
I am so down for the Kirtland, OH trip...Im going to be way tired, but I need to do it to have something to do and look forward to.
Also if you could plan a day when we can go to the temple in my first week home...that would be great seeing as I haven't been in a year and a half.
I got the email about November 1st with President Jensen. I'm not excited about it but I am glad that its not Friday and that I have some time to adjust while I'm still a missionary.
Id really like to go on splits with the sisters in our ward if EVA could set that up, that would be awesome.
---
I'm glad you got to see Meet the Mormons. I really want to see it.
You always do all of these fun things! I'm so happy that you're doing some good things. I'm excited to do them with you.
I've done what I could here and I continue to do what I can every day while still trying to get better. I've not been perfect, obviously, but I've done what I could. Then the Lord helped me change so that I could do more. I haven't checked out yet. I'm still here, but I'm ready to go home knowing that I did my part and continue to do my part. I have been successful because I have been changed.
---
Also BTW....they only left about a 20 MINUTE layover for me in Heathrow, so its pretty guaranteed that I'll miss that and I won't be home at the time that they said I would be. It took about 2 hours to even get through customs last time, so be aware.
Next week on Wednesday when you email me, it will be my last day in Bologna. if you could send me, all together maybe, something nice I guess, like a picture of you all on Skype together or something that would be much appreciated. Other than that, next week we can talk about the business-y stuff.
I'm here. I'm in the mission field. I stand as a representative of Jesus Christ. I'm all in. This is it! I love this work with everything that I am. It has changed me through and through.
Its going to feel so great to hug you and kiss your faces :)
Please know that I am doing my best, every day, one step at a time.
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love my God, and I am in awe of His mercy in sending me to this Earth so that I could partake of these blessings. The plan is real. Its all real and true and just. I love this work!
Sorella Carlock
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Seventy-six: October 15, 2014 Bologna
How are you?
Thanks for all of the emails and all of the great stories and pictures.
Happy Birthday Tanney!!!
I like your hair, Mommy!
Eva.Thanks for the email and for being a good example!
---
Well.
I have a question. I went to the bank and I pulled money out of the personal card. I didn't know there was any there? How much money is there? That way I can be smart about it.
---
Well I think the best part of this week were all of your emails. It was great to see how everything has been able to be worked out for Mommy's job. That's really special how it all worked. Its funny how sometimes those little decisions we make make all the difference. Its also more great how guided we are throughout our whole lives. Its amazing. Mind-boggling, really.
We'll never be able to understand in this life how intricately made His plan was for us.
---
Our investigator, P, is most likely dead. She's had about 4 heart attacks this year and she hasn't answered her phone for 2 weeks. We haven't heard anything from her.
We did pick up to other investigators though, which is good because now we have people to teach, along with our less-actives. The work in Bologna is just slow. Its pretty much not moving...
We aren't starting from scratch because there have been sisters here for about a year...but we're starting from scratch and I just don't want to have to search and search for people. I know I should and I'm trying to get better. Its difficult I think because in Vicenza we had SOOO much work, even when we weren't all that busy, we always had something to do. So coming from there, its a bit of a shock. Also, whenever we did finding, people ALWAYS talked to us. ALWAYS! Now its just a lot of rejection...so, yeah its a little exhausting.
Im really sorry I always vent. It does feel better to get it out though. I just want to have more to do. ha ha...we just have to MAKE more to do, and that's the hard part. BUT we're working on it. We have 2 new investigators! One is an old man we met at the park who has had a stroke so he struggles to speak. Another is an ex investigator that seems really open but is still very attached to the catholic church- she has a lot of deep questions which is hard, but its good practice for us.
I don't know, any advice? What am I doing wrong?
Just don't worry about me though. I'm not like dying or anything. You know what...I think its my prayers. I haven't been all that good about having meaningful prayers and I think that's it. I'm not really asking for help from Heavenly Father, so it makes sense. Ok, so I'll work on my prayers.
I got a blessing last week and it said that He was proud of me, so I just have to believe that and let that motivate me.
Missionary work is hard! Its also the most rewarding. Im about dead, physically and mentally...but that doesn't matter so much. Man, Im really excited for my bed...its big and comfy :)
Just keep updating me with how everything is going. Let me know how everything is. I love pictures too!!!
I love the Father. I love the Saviour. I love the Holy Ghost. I love the scriptures and prayer and church and the Sacrament. I love my life and this plan. I LOVE MY FAMILY! I love you all so much. Thanks for your support and your love. Its funny because although throughout the week I may not see much ''number success'', I come to do email and you email me with all of these miracles and that's why I'm here. Not to see numbers, but to bless the lives of others with the love of our Father- be it in Italy or the United States. Heavenly Father loves us! You, personally! YEAH, YOU!
And as merciful as He is, He loves me, too. Meno male.
We've had some really good lessons the past week....on the positive side. We teach a lot of less-actives and whenever we go, the only thing I can ever really say is ''look, God loves you, and He'll help you. just do your part! pray, read the scriptures. He wants to help you!''
ALSO! We had a mostra this past Sunday....AND A BUNCH OF MEMBERS CAME! THERE WERE SO MANY MEMBERS! they've never come before apparently. WOW! It was awesome. The drawing got way out of hand, but everyone was passing stuff out and talking to people. It was the best.
Also, Ive started to read the Bible again and its helping me understand the nature of Christ more. Which is nice. Sorella Stott and I have been trying to read the scriptures from the Topical Guide about Christ like : Jesus Christ, Exemplar...all those sections. Its been nice.
Ok...so I guess I really just need to get how I was feeling out and now I feel much better. I'M SO SORRY that this email is sooo long. But I'm so grateful that I get to at least email you. Man, I can't wait to give you all hugs and kisses!
I love you all so much.
And I guess, like I just did, try to see the good from the bad...rather than just the bad eh? ha ha.
Thanks for listening
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for being my family
Sorella Carlock
Thanks for all of the emails and all of the great stories and pictures.
Happy Birthday Tanney!!!
I like your hair, Mommy!
Eva.Thanks for the email and for being a good example!
---
Well.
I have a question. I went to the bank and I pulled money out of the personal card. I didn't know there was any there? How much money is there? That way I can be smart about it.
---
Well I think the best part of this week were all of your emails. It was great to see how everything has been able to be worked out for Mommy's job. That's really special how it all worked. Its funny how sometimes those little decisions we make make all the difference. Its also more great how guided we are throughout our whole lives. Its amazing. Mind-boggling, really.
We'll never be able to understand in this life how intricately made His plan was for us.
---
Our investigator, P, is most likely dead. She's had about 4 heart attacks this year and she hasn't answered her phone for 2 weeks. We haven't heard anything from her.
We did pick up to other investigators though, which is good because now we have people to teach, along with our less-actives. The work in Bologna is just slow. Its pretty much not moving...
We aren't starting from scratch because there have been sisters here for about a year...but we're starting from scratch and I just don't want to have to search and search for people. I know I should and I'm trying to get better. Its difficult I think because in Vicenza we had SOOO much work, even when we weren't all that busy, we always had something to do. So coming from there, its a bit of a shock. Also, whenever we did finding, people ALWAYS talked to us. ALWAYS! Now its just a lot of rejection...so, yeah its a little exhausting.
Im really sorry I always vent. It does feel better to get it out though. I just want to have more to do. ha ha...we just have to MAKE more to do, and that's the hard part. BUT we're working on it. We have 2 new investigators! One is an old man we met at the park who has had a stroke so he struggles to speak. Another is an ex investigator that seems really open but is still very attached to the catholic church- she has a lot of deep questions which is hard, but its good practice for us.
I don't know, any advice? What am I doing wrong?
Just don't worry about me though. I'm not like dying or anything. You know what...I think its my prayers. I haven't been all that good about having meaningful prayers and I think that's it. I'm not really asking for help from Heavenly Father, so it makes sense. Ok, so I'll work on my prayers.
I got a blessing last week and it said that He was proud of me, so I just have to believe that and let that motivate me.
Missionary work is hard! Its also the most rewarding. Im about dead, physically and mentally...but that doesn't matter so much. Man, Im really excited for my bed...its big and comfy :)
Just keep updating me with how everything is going. Let me know how everything is. I love pictures too!!!
I love the Father. I love the Saviour. I love the Holy Ghost. I love the scriptures and prayer and church and the Sacrament. I love my life and this plan. I LOVE MY FAMILY! I love you all so much. Thanks for your support and your love. Its funny because although throughout the week I may not see much ''number success'', I come to do email and you email me with all of these miracles and that's why I'm here. Not to see numbers, but to bless the lives of others with the love of our Father- be it in Italy or the United States. Heavenly Father loves us! You, personally! YEAH, YOU!
And as merciful as He is, He loves me, too. Meno male.
We've had some really good lessons the past week....on the positive side. We teach a lot of less-actives and whenever we go, the only thing I can ever really say is ''look, God loves you, and He'll help you. just do your part! pray, read the scriptures. He wants to help you!''
ALSO! We had a mostra this past Sunday....AND A BUNCH OF MEMBERS CAME! THERE WERE SO MANY MEMBERS! they've never come before apparently. WOW! It was awesome. The drawing got way out of hand, but everyone was passing stuff out and talking to people. It was the best.
Also, Ive started to read the Bible again and its helping me understand the nature of Christ more. Which is nice. Sorella Stott and I have been trying to read the scriptures from the Topical Guide about Christ like : Jesus Christ, Exemplar...all those sections. Its been nice.
Ok...so I guess I really just need to get how I was feeling out and now I feel much better. I'M SO SORRY that this email is sooo long. But I'm so grateful that I get to at least email you. Man, I can't wait to give you all hugs and kisses!
I love you all so much.
And I guess, like I just did, try to see the good from the bad...rather than just the bad eh? ha ha.
Thanks for listening
Thanks for loving me
Thanks for being my family
Sorella Carlock
Seventy-five: October 8, 2014 Bologna
Hey family, how are you?
Well... I guess I have a few cool things to share.
Did you get my pictures? I sent a lot of pictures this week. 16 I think.
I had my last Zone meeting this week. I was all butterflies for a few days, but it was fine once we got there. I gave my departing testimony. It was weird.
I didn't really want to, but I did. I got up and I just couldn't think. I had so many thoughts but I couldn't actually think of any of them. Luckily, I had written a few things down and that was a guide of some sort.
I said something along the lines of...
( I quoted Mark 8: 35, about losing your life to find it.) I am so grateful for the blessing of being able to serve, because as I served I found myself. This is who I am.
I might not have done anything huge or worth writing a book about, but I worked hard and I was a good missionary. I did what I could do, and then the Lord helped me do more.
I am the outcome of the blessings of the Atonement. I am changed and made new in Christ.
Its never too late to change or come unto Him. There is always time.
Do your best, remember who you are and appreciate what you've done.
I love my Saviour.
I have a strong testimony of prayer. I know God listens. Im here because He answered my prayer and I know He listens still.
----
It went something like that.
I felt much better after I had said it all out loud because it made me really that Ive been really hard on myself and what Ive been doing. No..I didn't baptize 20 people and right now we only have 1 investigator who isn't progressing all that quickly...but I'm still here. I'm still fighting and I'm doing the best that I can.
I don't need to hurdle mountains...I just have to keep walking. I'm trying to get better every day, but I don't want to criticize my service or myself anymore.
--
Another thing. We had a miracle!
Sorella Stott and I decided to have a few traditions.
Tuesday is target Tuesday...where we pray about someone we want to find, describe the person, and then search! We found our person!!
She was on the bus. I asked her about her necklace...it had Jesus on it! That may sound rare to you because we're in Italy...but I'm actually really surprised it wasn't Mary or a saint or the pope. It was Gesù! how perfect is that?
I got a little nervous though so I didn't try to get her number, but I gave her ours and told her about English class. BUT the point of that is that...IT WORKS! Heavenly Father answered our prayer. All of these little things we are starting to do are just more ways to show that we're committed to finding those that are ready so that we don't waste our time.
Well...that's really about it. I cant remember what else...
Oh yeah. We went to a restaurant for lunch to get pizza...I sent pictures. It was so buono!
We actually ate so much, that I still feel full.
Basically. everything is going well. Piano piano I'm getting to the finish line. I'm doing my best and trying to push myself.
I got a blessing last night and it said Heavenly Father was pleased with my work and wanted me to feel peace about what Ive done. I know that I needed to serve a mission. I think of who I was before and how lost I really was. and then I think of who I am now and how much I have grown. Ive really grown into my skin I guess you could say.
I know who I am and I know Heavenly Father loves me and thats what counts.
Please keep updating me and letting me know how you are and what you are up to.
Be good and know that I pray for you and love you sooooo much!
525 days as a missionary. Every day, a blessing.
Love you
:)
Sorella Lopina
Well... I guess I have a few cool things to share.
Did you get my pictures? I sent a lot of pictures this week. 16 I think.
I had my last Zone meeting this week. I was all butterflies for a few days, but it was fine once we got there. I gave my departing testimony. It was weird.
I didn't really want to, but I did. I got up and I just couldn't think. I had so many thoughts but I couldn't actually think of any of them. Luckily, I had written a few things down and that was a guide of some sort.
I said something along the lines of...
( I quoted Mark 8: 35, about losing your life to find it.) I am so grateful for the blessing of being able to serve, because as I served I found myself. This is who I am.
I might not have done anything huge or worth writing a book about, but I worked hard and I was a good missionary. I did what I could do, and then the Lord helped me do more.
I am the outcome of the blessings of the Atonement. I am changed and made new in Christ.
Its never too late to change or come unto Him. There is always time.
Do your best, remember who you are and appreciate what you've done.
I love my Saviour.
I have a strong testimony of prayer. I know God listens. Im here because He answered my prayer and I know He listens still.
----
It went something like that.
I felt much better after I had said it all out loud because it made me really that Ive been really hard on myself and what Ive been doing. No..I didn't baptize 20 people and right now we only have 1 investigator who isn't progressing all that quickly...but I'm still here. I'm still fighting and I'm doing the best that I can.
I don't need to hurdle mountains...I just have to keep walking. I'm trying to get better every day, but I don't want to criticize my service or myself anymore.
--
Another thing. We had a miracle!
Sorella Stott and I decided to have a few traditions.
Tuesday is target Tuesday...where we pray about someone we want to find, describe the person, and then search! We found our person!!
She was on the bus. I asked her about her necklace...it had Jesus on it! That may sound rare to you because we're in Italy...but I'm actually really surprised it wasn't Mary or a saint or the pope. It was Gesù! how perfect is that?
I got a little nervous though so I didn't try to get her number, but I gave her ours and told her about English class. BUT the point of that is that...IT WORKS! Heavenly Father answered our prayer. All of these little things we are starting to do are just more ways to show that we're committed to finding those that are ready so that we don't waste our time.
Well...that's really about it. I cant remember what else...
Oh yeah. We went to a restaurant for lunch to get pizza...I sent pictures. It was so buono!
We actually ate so much, that I still feel full.
Basically. everything is going well. Piano piano I'm getting to the finish line. I'm doing my best and trying to push myself.
I got a blessing last night and it said Heavenly Father was pleased with my work and wanted me to feel peace about what Ive done. I know that I needed to serve a mission. I think of who I was before and how lost I really was. and then I think of who I am now and how much I have grown. Ive really grown into my skin I guess you could say.
I know who I am and I know Heavenly Father loves me and thats what counts.
Please keep updating me and letting me know how you are and what you are up to.
Be good and know that I pray for you and love you sooooo much!
525 days as a missionary. Every day, a blessing.
Love you
:)
Sorella Lopina
Seventy-four: October 1, 2014 Bologna
You all rock. I had like 40 emails in my inbox and I loved it!! Mostly pictures, lol Eva's face. THE BEST!
I am doing really well today. Really well. I'm just so happy. Sorella Stott and I both are. Man, I don't know what it is, we just feel different.
Well, I guess a few things have happened. We had a scambio, companion exchange, last week. I went to Rimini which is a beach city and I saw the sea. It was amazing! I felt so trapped last year in Milano because I couldn't see water or anything...it was sooo land-y...ya know? I loved being able to smell the salt and feel the breeze. Of course we didn't go on the beach or anything, but it was pretty to see.
We also had the best gelato Ive had in my entire life~ si chiama, (its called) Biscotto della Nonna....GRANDMAS COOKIES! It was great.
Anyway. The sister I was with was really good at talking things out with me. She was trained by Sorella Harward and she is in my MTC group. She was so kind and she gave me a good analogy.
She used to swim and she had a race once where she just kind of eased along. She was a good swimmer so it wasn't hard. Then at the end she had lots of energy and so she ''sprinted to the end''. Her brother, who was kind of like her coach, asked her how she was able to finish so easily. She said ''well I just had all this energy at the end.'' Her brother said, ''that's because you weren't doing your best the whole way through.''
She then explained that I was so tired because I had been going and going the whole way. We cant ''sprint to the end'' in the way that we might want to if we're tired from all the swimming we've already been doing.
Its ok that I'm tired and that I kind of want to stop. It means Ive done my part! Through all of these little analogies that everyone is making, my guilty conscience has been cleared. I understand more fully the Atonement and how Heavenly Father is taking an account of my service. I get that its ok, as long as I don't give up now! 30 days. YEAH! I can do it!
The Elders in our city keep counting down to day 0 for me....but I'm counting up. How many days have I left behind? How many days have a sprinted through...? Freak...I don't know...but I'm tired...and it feels awful and great all at the same time. I'm kind of at the point. when you exercise and your lungs start hurting and your legs feel like jelly but you just kind of feel alive. I feel alive. I feel like we are about to have so many miracles.
This month, being the last. We set a goal to have 12 new investigators and 1 baptism. President asked us to find 3 new people a week and we want to do that. PRAY FOR US PLEASE! We have faith sufficient, and prayers will help us keep going. We're going to do it. I want to do everything I can to help Sorella Stott know that miracles are possible and they happen every day.
We have been doing so well together lately. We pretty much only speak in Italian together. Some English here and there, but mostly of the day is spent speaking Italian. I love it! She loves it too...even though its hard. We had a sweet moment last night too. When I was a trainee, Sorella Hoppe said 'ti voglio bene' every night to me. I don't know why I haven't done it...but I wanted to start because I want Sorella Stott to know that I do love her. I do say ''buona notte'' and that's just become our thing. But last night she said ''ti voglio bene''....and I feel like a total piece of milk toast, but it warmed my heart and it made me feel so good!
We're becoming friends, forever friends, her and I. I really enjoy being her companion. She's a great missionary with lots of amazing ideas and she isn't afraid. She gets that big things can happen, and WILL happen, if we do our part and trust God. Che speciale, no? Also, I told her that after the mission, we're only going to speak together in Italian...so we're excited for that too.
Basically, things are looking up. We were with our investigator Pasqua yesterday, and she says to me ''you look as white as a sheet'' and I just said ''oh I'm just tired''...so obviously its visible how exhausted I am....but I feel more happy and more hopeful than last week and I know Heavenly Father is helping us.
Man...I just want to tell you everything. OH...I'll be giving my 'dying' testimony on Monday. It'll be my last public testimony among missionaries...I'm kind of dreading it...because how could I possibly say anything worth while in a few minutes. Its not enough time...I need at least 45 minutes to share how much the mission has changed me. I am so different....I cant even fathom how different I am from who I was before. You'll be so surprised....its all the little things.
I'm excited to relearn each other, diciamo. I think we'll have a lot of time to just build on our family unit and our faith together. Man...its going to be the best!
Basically....everything is ok for now. I am hopeful and ready to work harder...
Yesterday we left the house at 825 ..we didn't even study...and we got back in at 925pm! 13 hrs! It was the best! I loved it. It made me realize how much of a homebody I was and how much I actually like being outside now. So much is different. Im still not at my old 100% but I'm doing my best for what I can offer now...and Im searching to improve. I'm changing every day!
-----
Well....thats about it. We went to this BEAUTIFUL...and I mean BEAUTIFULLLLL... catholic church today. It was amazing...not gaudy or dark or creepy...mamma mia, era bellissima!
Look it up
Oratorio
Il transito della vergine
by Alfonso
Its a terracotta statue depiction of Ananias being cast out of somewhere by an angel, mi sembra...non mi ricordo. But anyway it was so beautiful.
We have gone on some good adventures, but we didn't bring the camera SD card adaptor, so we'll send un sacco di foto next week
Know that I love you and that I am praying for you. Every night.
LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Keep writing and please keep sending pictures. It really makes a difference.
Sorella Carlock
I am doing really well today. Really well. I'm just so happy. Sorella Stott and I both are. Man, I don't know what it is, we just feel different.
Well, I guess a few things have happened. We had a scambio, companion exchange, last week. I went to Rimini which is a beach city and I saw the sea. It was amazing! I felt so trapped last year in Milano because I couldn't see water or anything...it was sooo land-y...ya know? I loved being able to smell the salt and feel the breeze. Of course we didn't go on the beach or anything, but it was pretty to see.
We also had the best gelato Ive had in my entire life~ si chiama, (its called) Biscotto della Nonna....GRANDMAS COOKIES! It was great.
Anyway. The sister I was with was really good at talking things out with me. She was trained by Sorella Harward and she is in my MTC group. She was so kind and she gave me a good analogy.
She used to swim and she had a race once where she just kind of eased along. She was a good swimmer so it wasn't hard. Then at the end she had lots of energy and so she ''sprinted to the end''. Her brother, who was kind of like her coach, asked her how she was able to finish so easily. She said ''well I just had all this energy at the end.'' Her brother said, ''that's because you weren't doing your best the whole way through.''
She then explained that I was so tired because I had been going and going the whole way. We cant ''sprint to the end'' in the way that we might want to if we're tired from all the swimming we've already been doing.
Its ok that I'm tired and that I kind of want to stop. It means Ive done my part! Through all of these little analogies that everyone is making, my guilty conscience has been cleared. I understand more fully the Atonement and how Heavenly Father is taking an account of my service. I get that its ok, as long as I don't give up now! 30 days. YEAH! I can do it!
The Elders in our city keep counting down to day 0 for me....but I'm counting up. How many days have I left behind? How many days have a sprinted through...? Freak...I don't know...but I'm tired...and it feels awful and great all at the same time. I'm kind of at the point. when you exercise and your lungs start hurting and your legs feel like jelly but you just kind of feel alive. I feel alive. I feel like we are about to have so many miracles.
This month, being the last. We set a goal to have 12 new investigators and 1 baptism. President asked us to find 3 new people a week and we want to do that. PRAY FOR US PLEASE! We have faith sufficient, and prayers will help us keep going. We're going to do it. I want to do everything I can to help Sorella Stott know that miracles are possible and they happen every day.
We have been doing so well together lately. We pretty much only speak in Italian together. Some English here and there, but mostly of the day is spent speaking Italian. I love it! She loves it too...even though its hard. We had a sweet moment last night too. When I was a trainee, Sorella Hoppe said 'ti voglio bene' every night to me. I don't know why I haven't done it...but I wanted to start because I want Sorella Stott to know that I do love her. I do say ''buona notte'' and that's just become our thing. But last night she said ''ti voglio bene''....and I feel like a total piece of milk toast, but it warmed my heart and it made me feel so good!
We're becoming friends, forever friends, her and I. I really enjoy being her companion. She's a great missionary with lots of amazing ideas and she isn't afraid. She gets that big things can happen, and WILL happen, if we do our part and trust God. Che speciale, no? Also, I told her that after the mission, we're only going to speak together in Italian...so we're excited for that too.
Basically, things are looking up. We were with our investigator Pasqua yesterday, and she says to me ''you look as white as a sheet'' and I just said ''oh I'm just tired''...so obviously its visible how exhausted I am....but I feel more happy and more hopeful than last week and I know Heavenly Father is helping us.
Man...I just want to tell you everything. OH...I'll be giving my 'dying' testimony on Monday. It'll be my last public testimony among missionaries...I'm kind of dreading it...because how could I possibly say anything worth while in a few minutes. Its not enough time...I need at least 45 minutes to share how much the mission has changed me. I am so different....I cant even fathom how different I am from who I was before. You'll be so surprised....its all the little things.
I'm excited to relearn each other, diciamo. I think we'll have a lot of time to just build on our family unit and our faith together. Man...its going to be the best!
Basically....everything is ok for now. I am hopeful and ready to work harder...
Yesterday we left the house at 825 ..we didn't even study...and we got back in at 925pm! 13 hrs! It was the best! I loved it. It made me realize how much of a homebody I was and how much I actually like being outside now. So much is different. Im still not at my old 100% but I'm doing my best for what I can offer now...and Im searching to improve. I'm changing every day!
-----
Well....thats about it. We went to this BEAUTIFUL...and I mean BEAUTIFULLLLL... catholic church today. It was amazing...not gaudy or dark or creepy...mamma mia, era bellissima!
Look it up
Oratorio
Il transito della vergine
by Alfonso
Its a terracotta statue depiction of Ananias being cast out of somewhere by an angel, mi sembra...non mi ricordo. But anyway it was so beautiful.
We have gone on some good adventures, but we didn't bring the camera SD card adaptor, so we'll send un sacco di foto next week
Know that I love you and that I am praying for you. Every night.
LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
Keep writing and please keep sending pictures. It really makes a difference.
Sorella Carlock
Letter from President Dibb
29 September 2014
Dear Sister Harmon,
For the past eighteen months, your daughter, Sister Zoe Jade Carlock, has been faithfully serving in the Italy Milan Mission, teaching the gospel to the Italian people. The time is approaching for her to return home and begin a new phase of her life.
Sister Carlock entered Italy on 12 Jun 2013, and served in the cities Milano Cimiano, Genova, Vicenza and Bologna.
Sister Carlock has represented the Church and the Lord well. I understand the importance of her personal progress and pray for her success as she returns home. Please help her to keep the wonderful patterns that she has developed as a missionary, so that they may become habits for her life.
We express our deepest gratitude for the missionary labors of Sister Carlock here in Italy. We would like to thank you for your great contribution in rearing and training your to serve the Lord, and for your sacrifice, love and support to her during her mission.
Sincerely,
Presidente Bruce L. Dibb
Presidente di Missione
Missione Italiana di Milano
+39 02 5760 0860
Via A. Gramsci 13
20090 Opera (MI)
Italia
brudi@ldschurch.org
Registrati su: mormon.org/ita/me/B4ZW/BruceDibb
Dear Sister Harmon,
For the past eighteen months, your daughter, Sister Zoe Jade Carlock, has been faithfully serving in the Italy Milan Mission, teaching the gospel to the Italian people. The time is approaching for her to return home and begin a new phase of her life.
Sister Carlock entered Italy on 12 Jun 2013, and served in the cities Milano Cimiano, Genova, Vicenza and Bologna.
Sister Carlock has represented the Church and the Lord well. I understand the importance of her personal progress and pray for her success as she returns home. Please help her to keep the wonderful patterns that she has developed as a missionary, so that they may become habits for her life.
We express our deepest gratitude for the missionary labors of Sister Carlock here in Italy. We would like to thank you for your great contribution in rearing and training your to serve the Lord, and for your sacrifice, love and support to her during her mission.
Sincerely,
Presidente Bruce L. Dibb
Presidente di Missione
Missione Italiana di Milano
+39 02 5760 0860
Via A. Gramsci 13
20090 Opera (MI)
Italia
brudi@ldschurch.org
Registrati su: mormon.org/ita/me/B4ZW/BruceDibb
Seventy-three: September 24, 2014 Bologna
I read all of your emails and just sit here and cry and cry...ha ha, its kind of ridiculous really.
Today, its really hit me. I'm really really tired. I can barely walk. I'm exercising, I'm trying to eat more healthful foods. (Just now that when I get home, I'm going to be kind of a health-nut, so watch out)
I just don't know what else I can give.
Eva will like this comparison I'm about to make....
In the first book of the Hunger Games, Katniss is in the Games and she's just been burned by that fireball thing. She's really thirsty and she is about to give up and die....That's how I feel. Like I can't find the strength that I'm looking for and that I've been doing this for so long that its almost easier to just let go.
Katniss thinks that Haymitch should've sent water...why isn't he sending water or something to help? She feels like he's given up on her and then she realizes...He isn't sending her water as a sign- she's so close...she just needs to keep going.
I want to make every day count. I don't know how to feel satisfied with what I've done, because I feel like that will make me complacent. I cannot NOT finish strong. It would crush me. I'm trying my best though. I'm trying to measure my limits by asking, ''could I do more right now?'' or ''do I need to sit and take a rest or could I keep going?'' ...something like that.
I wanted to say though- it is so great to see that Heavenly Father is blessing you all in various ways. He IS mindful of us and what we need and is always willing and ready to help us...especially when we ask and thank Him for the help previously received. I am half amazed, half un-amazed, because I know that its true- but each time it seems to be a more specific and 'intimate' answer. A personal and deep yearning for help. He's answered every prayer. Everything. There is no way He doesn't exist or love us. things don't just happen like this. This is a greater testimony that He is (Dio c'è!!!)
I am so grateful for prayers and for the scriptures. Each time I read the scriptures, I learn something new. BTW!!! I have finished the Book of Mormon twice now in Italian and I am about 250 pages into my third go-around....SO I'm going to read it 3 times! I'm going to be fluent. Every time I open the Book of Mormon, I feel the Spirit telling me that it is true and I feel that it completes the Bible because I read the Bible and they share the same gift of love....I don't know how to explain it in English.
BTW again....Eva I hope you're ready to speak Italian with me for the rest of your life. I bet youìre so good already and I can help you with your accent. Mom says you're already great though and I believe her.--- I'll be your Italian cousin.. My name will be Valentina...or I don't know, you can choose. :)
It's funny because sometimes I yell in Italian...I'm not angry really, but something will fall...or a guy will cough on me...or ill get my foot stuck in the bus door and (most times just in my head) Ill yell something in Italian- I talk to myself mostly in Italian...like when I'm tired I'm like...ok vai. alzati, andiamo. its fun. It helps me remember and its good practice.
I'm sorry I don't have much to talk about this week. We're trying to have a really good week where we push ourselves...I don't know how much I have left to push, but please pray that Heavenly Father will make up the difference.
---
I cannot wait to hug you and kiss you and tell you in person that I love you. That thought motivates me to keep going. It is like you said Mom, I dont know how to stop, but I dont know how to keep going either. I'll get there. I'm on my way. Its all more beautiful from the top.
I love you all with my whole soul. You are a source of great strength and love.
I can't wait to be able to text you silly things and cook Italian food for all of you. I can't wait to tell you all of the stories and to read from the scriptures and pray with you. I love you all, Mommy, Tanney, Evie. I love you!
FEEL MY LOOOOOVE :) I am here but know that I am sending my love your way.
This is my last transfer. 5 and a half weeks. I can do this. I'm going to do this. I'm doing it already!
I love you
I love you
I love you
Sorella Carlock
Today, its really hit me. I'm really really tired. I can barely walk. I'm exercising, I'm trying to eat more healthful foods. (Just now that when I get home, I'm going to be kind of a health-nut, so watch out)
I just don't know what else I can give.
Eva will like this comparison I'm about to make....
In the first book of the Hunger Games, Katniss is in the Games and she's just been burned by that fireball thing. She's really thirsty and she is about to give up and die....That's how I feel. Like I can't find the strength that I'm looking for and that I've been doing this for so long that its almost easier to just let go.
Katniss thinks that Haymitch should've sent water...why isn't he sending water or something to help? She feels like he's given up on her and then she realizes...He isn't sending her water as a sign- she's so close...she just needs to keep going.
I want to make every day count. I don't know how to feel satisfied with what I've done, because I feel like that will make me complacent. I cannot NOT finish strong. It would crush me. I'm trying my best though. I'm trying to measure my limits by asking, ''could I do more right now?'' or ''do I need to sit and take a rest or could I keep going?'' ...something like that.
I wanted to say though- it is so great to see that Heavenly Father is blessing you all in various ways. He IS mindful of us and what we need and is always willing and ready to help us...especially when we ask and thank Him for the help previously received. I am half amazed, half un-amazed, because I know that its true- but each time it seems to be a more specific and 'intimate' answer. A personal and deep yearning for help. He's answered every prayer. Everything. There is no way He doesn't exist or love us. things don't just happen like this. This is a greater testimony that He is (Dio c'è!!!)
I am so grateful for prayers and for the scriptures. Each time I read the scriptures, I learn something new. BTW!!! I have finished the Book of Mormon twice now in Italian and I am about 250 pages into my third go-around....SO I'm going to read it 3 times! I'm going to be fluent. Every time I open the Book of Mormon, I feel the Spirit telling me that it is true and I feel that it completes the Bible because I read the Bible and they share the same gift of love....I don't know how to explain it in English.
BTW again....Eva I hope you're ready to speak Italian with me for the rest of your life. I bet youìre so good already and I can help you with your accent. Mom says you're already great though and I believe her.--- I'll be your Italian cousin.. My name will be Valentina...or I don't know, you can choose. :)
It's funny because sometimes I yell in Italian...I'm not angry really, but something will fall...or a guy will cough on me...or ill get my foot stuck in the bus door and (most times just in my head) Ill yell something in Italian- I talk to myself mostly in Italian...like when I'm tired I'm like...ok vai. alzati, andiamo. its fun. It helps me remember and its good practice.
I'm sorry I don't have much to talk about this week. We're trying to have a really good week where we push ourselves...I don't know how much I have left to push, but please pray that Heavenly Father will make up the difference.
---
I cannot wait to hug you and kiss you and tell you in person that I love you. That thought motivates me to keep going. It is like you said Mom, I dont know how to stop, but I dont know how to keep going either. I'll get there. I'm on my way. Its all more beautiful from the top.
I love you all with my whole soul. You are a source of great strength and love.
I can't wait to be able to text you silly things and cook Italian food for all of you. I can't wait to tell you all of the stories and to read from the scriptures and pray with you. I love you all, Mommy, Tanney, Evie. I love you!
FEEL MY LOOOOOVE :) I am here but know that I am sending my love your way.
This is my last transfer. 5 and a half weeks. I can do this. I'm going to do this. I'm doing it already!
I love you
I love you
I love you
Sorella Carlock
Seventy-two: September 17, 2014 Bologna
Hello dear family!
How are you?
Eva, I will work on that ''how to'' when I get home! Ha ha- good luck in the game. You'll do great!
Mommy, good luck on the test too! I'm praying for you!
Tanney, good luck on today! Whatever it is for you...good luck!!
---
All of the emails I got today were perfect. Thank you so much. I was feeling really down on myself and I felt like such a schmuck, for lack of a better word, and the emails I got today really helped me feel better.
Well...to update you on the work. We have 1 investigator...with a baptismal date! YAY! She's lived such a crazy life and I don't even know how she's still going...but it solidifies my tesitmony of the Atonement...anyone can change. Anyone can become new. We're trying to meet with the members work to get referrals and just to get to know them. We don't have much to do, and the best way to do missionary work is through the members so we are going to start there.
Its been an interesting week. Sorella Stott and I have been sick for the past 2 weeks, so its been hard. Im so ready to just feel well and get going. I wrote in my journal last night about how I was a little frustrated about being sick, especially this close to ...you know...and how I wanted to give everything without holding back.
I was writing, '' as soon as we feel better, we're going to be working so hard we wish we were sick so that we could slow down for a minute'' I plan on finshing strong and going home near dead. I want to give my all and I want to do my best.
Ive been having a lot of dreams about coming home and feeling unsatisfied with my work...kind of sucks, but that's not going to be me. I can do this...because Im not doing it alone. I have my companion, my support from you all, and I have Heavenly Father. This is His work. ''Whom the Lord calls, He qualifies'', He is and has always has been helping me. Im pretty sure, Id be dead by now if He hadn't-
I got an email from Sorella Harward. When we were companions, we talked about a marathon runner. She said ''don't you think he got tired too at the end of the race? its because he was running this whole time. you're tired because you're doing your job''. She wrote that to me today and it reminded me that ''hey. yeah its ok that I'm tired and I want to sit down, or maybe even give up sometimes. at least it shows ive been running. at least I've been running''
This brings me back to something I wrote last week, I think..at least Im still walking. I'm still here, I'm still trying, and while the Master says there is still time I need to keep going.
I feel like a bomb about to explode...things always get hard right before a big miracle comes and its coming soon. I feel it. The Lord is preparing something for us and I have faith in His power. He has worked miracles in my life and in the lives of those around me.
I love the Lord. I love Him. He is so merciful and so present in my life. I am not alone. We are never alone.
This was a good email session. Thanks for all of your help. I feel better now.
I hope that by talking to me through email, I might offer something to you as well.
I know that God lives and love us. He is such an active Parent and wants us to let Him in so we can feel of His love. I feel His love everyday and I long to feel it more.
Mommy, I really hope you do well on your test. I know that you can do it. You're my mommy! You can do anything! I am praying for you. Go get 'em!
Evie, I know you're going to rock it. Just remember what your arm-wrap says. YOU WILL! Teamwork is key. Be a team player.
Tanney, I hope you do well in school today and learn a lot. You are such a strength. You is kind, you in smart, you is important. Remember how special you are. YA THA BEST!
I don't have much to write this week either. There is much to say, other than I love you. I'm committed, I'm still going. I can't wait to see you and hug you and kiss you again! Its going to be a really sacred experience and I can't wait. You are my strength and my joy. Be good. Be happy. Be strong,
Never give up ;)
Sorella Carlock
How are you?
Eva, I will work on that ''how to'' when I get home! Ha ha- good luck in the game. You'll do great!
Mommy, good luck on the test too! I'm praying for you!
Tanney, good luck on today! Whatever it is for you...good luck!!
---
All of the emails I got today were perfect. Thank you so much. I was feeling really down on myself and I felt like such a schmuck, for lack of a better word, and the emails I got today really helped me feel better.
Well...to update you on the work. We have 1 investigator...with a baptismal date! YAY! She's lived such a crazy life and I don't even know how she's still going...but it solidifies my tesitmony of the Atonement...anyone can change. Anyone can become new. We're trying to meet with the members work to get referrals and just to get to know them. We don't have much to do, and the best way to do missionary work is through the members so we are going to start there.
Its been an interesting week. Sorella Stott and I have been sick for the past 2 weeks, so its been hard. Im so ready to just feel well and get going. I wrote in my journal last night about how I was a little frustrated about being sick, especially this close to ...you know...and how I wanted to give everything without holding back.
I was writing, '' as soon as we feel better, we're going to be working so hard we wish we were sick so that we could slow down for a minute'' I plan on finshing strong and going home near dead. I want to give my all and I want to do my best.
Ive been having a lot of dreams about coming home and feeling unsatisfied with my work...kind of sucks, but that's not going to be me. I can do this...because Im not doing it alone. I have my companion, my support from you all, and I have Heavenly Father. This is His work. ''Whom the Lord calls, He qualifies'', He is and has always has been helping me. Im pretty sure, Id be dead by now if He hadn't-
I got an email from Sorella Harward. When we were companions, we talked about a marathon runner. She said ''don't you think he got tired too at the end of the race? its because he was running this whole time. you're tired because you're doing your job''. She wrote that to me today and it reminded me that ''hey. yeah its ok that I'm tired and I want to sit down, or maybe even give up sometimes. at least it shows ive been running. at least I've been running''
This brings me back to something I wrote last week, I think..at least Im still walking. I'm still here, I'm still trying, and while the Master says there is still time I need to keep going.
I feel like a bomb about to explode...things always get hard right before a big miracle comes and its coming soon. I feel it. The Lord is preparing something for us and I have faith in His power. He has worked miracles in my life and in the lives of those around me.
I love the Lord. I love Him. He is so merciful and so present in my life. I am not alone. We are never alone.
This was a good email session. Thanks for all of your help. I feel better now.
I hope that by talking to me through email, I might offer something to you as well.
I know that God lives and love us. He is such an active Parent and wants us to let Him in so we can feel of His love. I feel His love everyday and I long to feel it more.
Mommy, I really hope you do well on your test. I know that you can do it. You're my mommy! You can do anything! I am praying for you. Go get 'em!
Evie, I know you're going to rock it. Just remember what your arm-wrap says. YOU WILL! Teamwork is key. Be a team player.
Tanney, I hope you do well in school today and learn a lot. You are such a strength. You is kind, you in smart, you is important. Remember how special you are. YA THA BEST!
I don't have much to write this week either. There is much to say, other than I love you. I'm committed, I'm still going. I can't wait to see you and hug you and kiss you again! Its going to be a really sacred experience and I can't wait. You are my strength and my joy. Be good. Be happy. Be strong,
Never give up ;)
Sorella Carlock
Seventy-one: September 10, 2014 Bologna
HEEELLLLLOOO!
So whats up? How has this week been? How is school and work?
Eva I love the shirt hair combo. Very cool.
Thanks for updating me on everything. It really helps me to know whats going on. That way I dont feel so isolated here.
I found out at a member's house about the Russia /Ukraine war...I had absolutely no idea. Not even an inkling. How are all of these things happening? And how is is that we don't know? Its amazing...the Lord protects us with all of these rules. Its so sad...when I heard all of the things this member was saying I wanted to cry. How many people have been put in danger? Its just sad. THAT KIND OF STUFF, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW...Id prefer really if it never happened. But anyway, I enjoy hearing about YOUR lives and what you are doing...pictures are even better... ;)
Its amazing really. I pray every morning for energy and strength and health, and I make it through each day. I get to the end. I know that that is made possible through Heavenly Father's power and through my faith in that power. I see miracles every day. The fact that I am still here and still going is a miracle. I'm going to need a lot of help when I go home...but I'm going to make it there, and its going to feel awesome. As Sorella Harward once said (something of the sort), ''even if I have to crawl into Heaven on my hands and knees, even if I'm the last one there...Ill get there'' I feel the same way. I'll get there.
I had an epiphany actually. I called the anziani for another blessing so that I could have some more strength...The anziano that answered said, well how are you?, and I said I'm still walking Anziano, I'm ok as long as I'm still walking. It's true. Even in merit to the Gospel...as long as you're still on the path, bloody and bruised...maybe missing a leg or all of your teeth from smacking your head against the same wall over and over and over again, at least you're still walking on that path. There is always room to improve, but you cant improve if you arent on the path...going in the right direction of course.
Well...I have to say, I love my companion...I realized the other day...I think she kinda likes me too...I wasn't sure what she was thinking before, but at least I know she doesn't want to kill me...I hope ha ha. She is just so sweet and humble and I really like her. She's so patient with me, especially now when I'm having such a hard time. I want to be better for her, to help her make the best of this time. She's a really powerful missionary, its amazing.
I don't really have much to talk about. We don't have hardly any work right now. When we came in, it was pretty empty and now everyone that we found is kind of disappearing...SO back to square 1! We can handle it. Ive done this before! Talk about the mission preparing you for life...I feel like I have the same experiences over again here...its like I need to use them again or something. :)
Well...I'm going to talk about how long I have left for just a minute...then, I want us all to not talk about it anymore...at least as much as possible.
I counted the other day...I have 51 days left in the mission. 51. On Monday night, I realized that 1 month and 1/2 is fairly short and I just started crying and crying and praying to be able to make the most of it. It really hit me. I just filled with such a heart wrenching pain...it hurt! I never want to feel that again..but unfortunately, I will have to. I want to make the most of this short short time. I want to give my all. I am going to need you to not talk about me going home. Ill try my best too. Obviously, we can say 'cant wait to see you'' or we can talk about necessary plans...but I really don't want to think about it. If I can forget myself and forget my health and this reality and give it all...coming home will be sweet. Please support me in this. PLEASE, tell me everything... talk about your lives and missionary work and I will talk about mine. I have felt the missionary spirit and I need it to keep going while I am a full-time missionary. I know we're all excited, heck Im so excited to hug you all...but I just ask that we talk about it when I'm home.
I love you all and I know you understand this. I miss you more than ever right now. I could really use a solid hug and an oatmeal cookie with a side of WAFFLE CRISP!!! WHAT WHAT! But I can wait, we can wait. Then when we get together again and we say ''we did it!'' we can also say ''we left everything behind, wasn't that worth it''
ok, moment over :) I love the mission. I love how hard it is and how much I have to push myself. I love every single moment and every single heartache. I love those mistakes I made because I learned from them, and I became something better. I love my Saviour. Luckily, He loves me too! There is nothing more fulfilling than missionary work. We're teaching a lesson today about missionary work using Alma 29: 9... ''that might be an instrument in bringing [someone unto the Lord] and this is my joy''. THIS IS MY JOY!!! THis is who I am...I have found who I am here and I have found the path to who I can become.
I cant wait to see you all again...well I can...but there isnt a better way to say it...Im REEEEAAALLY looking forward to seeing you and hugging you :)
I love you all with my whole soul, with everything that I am. I pray for you and live for you each day. I know that you will be blessed through my service. That is my great hope! I love you. I love you. I love you :)
Sorella Carlock
So whats up? How has this week been? How is school and work?
Eva I love the shirt hair combo. Very cool.
Thanks for updating me on everything. It really helps me to know whats going on. That way I dont feel so isolated here.
I found out at a member's house about the Russia /Ukraine war...I had absolutely no idea. Not even an inkling. How are all of these things happening? And how is is that we don't know? Its amazing...the Lord protects us with all of these rules. Its so sad...when I heard all of the things this member was saying I wanted to cry. How many people have been put in danger? Its just sad. THAT KIND OF STUFF, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW...Id prefer really if it never happened. But anyway, I enjoy hearing about YOUR lives and what you are doing...pictures are even better... ;)
Its amazing really. I pray every morning for energy and strength and health, and I make it through each day. I get to the end. I know that that is made possible through Heavenly Father's power and through my faith in that power. I see miracles every day. The fact that I am still here and still going is a miracle. I'm going to need a lot of help when I go home...but I'm going to make it there, and its going to feel awesome. As Sorella Harward once said (something of the sort), ''even if I have to crawl into Heaven on my hands and knees, even if I'm the last one there...Ill get there'' I feel the same way. I'll get there.
I had an epiphany actually. I called the anziani for another blessing so that I could have some more strength...The anziano that answered said, well how are you?, and I said I'm still walking Anziano, I'm ok as long as I'm still walking. It's true. Even in merit to the Gospel...as long as you're still on the path, bloody and bruised...maybe missing a leg or all of your teeth from smacking your head against the same wall over and over and over again, at least you're still walking on that path. There is always room to improve, but you cant improve if you arent on the path...going in the right direction of course.
Well...I have to say, I love my companion...I realized the other day...I think she kinda likes me too...I wasn't sure what she was thinking before, but at least I know she doesn't want to kill me...I hope ha ha. She is just so sweet and humble and I really like her. She's so patient with me, especially now when I'm having such a hard time. I want to be better for her, to help her make the best of this time. She's a really powerful missionary, its amazing.
I don't really have much to talk about. We don't have hardly any work right now. When we came in, it was pretty empty and now everyone that we found is kind of disappearing...SO back to square 1! We can handle it. Ive done this before! Talk about the mission preparing you for life...I feel like I have the same experiences over again here...its like I need to use them again or something. :)
Well...I'm going to talk about how long I have left for just a minute...then, I want us all to not talk about it anymore...at least as much as possible.
I counted the other day...I have 51 days left in the mission. 51. On Monday night, I realized that 1 month and 1/2 is fairly short and I just started crying and crying and praying to be able to make the most of it. It really hit me. I just filled with such a heart wrenching pain...it hurt! I never want to feel that again..but unfortunately, I will have to. I want to make the most of this short short time. I want to give my all. I am going to need you to not talk about me going home. Ill try my best too. Obviously, we can say 'cant wait to see you'' or we can talk about necessary plans...but I really don't want to think about it. If I can forget myself and forget my health and this reality and give it all...coming home will be sweet. Please support me in this. PLEASE, tell me everything... talk about your lives and missionary work and I will talk about mine. I have felt the missionary spirit and I need it to keep going while I am a full-time missionary. I know we're all excited, heck Im so excited to hug you all...but I just ask that we talk about it when I'm home.
I love you all and I know you understand this. I miss you more than ever right now. I could really use a solid hug and an oatmeal cookie with a side of WAFFLE CRISP!!! WHAT WHAT! But I can wait, we can wait. Then when we get together again and we say ''we did it!'' we can also say ''we left everything behind, wasn't that worth it''
ok, moment over :) I love the mission. I love how hard it is and how much I have to push myself. I love every single moment and every single heartache. I love those mistakes I made because I learned from them, and I became something better. I love my Saviour. Luckily, He loves me too! There is nothing more fulfilling than missionary work. We're teaching a lesson today about missionary work using Alma 29: 9... ''that might be an instrument in bringing [someone unto the Lord] and this is my joy''. THIS IS MY JOY!!! THis is who I am...I have found who I am here and I have found the path to who I can become.
I cant wait to see you all again...well I can...but there isnt a better way to say it...Im REEEEAAALLY looking forward to seeing you and hugging you :)
I love you all with my whole soul, with everything that I am. I pray for you and live for you each day. I know that you will be blessed through my service. That is my great hope! I love you. I love you. I love you :)
Sorella Carlock
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Seventy: September 3, 2014 Bologna
Thank you all so much for your emails and your love. It really helps me push forward, even though right now I'm struggling with exhaustion. We are working so hard, but we just don't have a lot to do here. It's all either finding or member visits. We have no one that can see us, everyone is busy and there is a lot of empty space.
Eva, I love your blue hair! It looks cool! Remember to look at hairstyles for me when I come home. All for long hair, though, because I'm not cutting it again.
Tanney, I'm happy you got back to Utah safely after that huge delay. Sorry you had to sleep in the airport like a hobo. That's not fun- but you're back and safe now! Good!
Mommy, I'm sorry that you haven't heard anything about the job and that your other job has been having some little issues. That stinks. I'm still praying though!
Basically, I'm still in a weird spot. Just really pesante, ''heavy'', as the Italians say. A lot of weight on my shoulders and I've been feeling just that, really weighed down. I'm just spent of all my energy. I'm going to need a lot of sleep when I get home. I really am OK though -- I function just fine, I'm not like going to fall over dead at any point and I still have my sense of humor, but you know what I mean? sometimes I just feel a weight on me. I'm still trying to do my best and I continue to be obedient and diligent. I'm doing all right.
Thank you, Mommy, for your email. It really helped me. I think you must constantly have revelations for me and what you need to say. You have to because you always say the right thing. You're my mom, so you just get it. Thank you! I cried a little when I read the email and it felt kind of nice. You understood me and supported me while telling me I need to keep going. Thank you :) I'm happy...
I want you all to know that regardless of how I am feeling or what trials He gives us that I know that God's love is real. It is the power that moves everything, the power that created the earth and the heavens. It was the reason The Plan of Salvation was brought forth and it's the means for fulfilling its purpose. Through that love, we exist and we are known. I know Heavenly Father knows me personally and I know Him, too, through prayer. He is our Father in a very literal sense and He wants us to know Him. He loves us so much that He sent His Son to atone, to erase, to eliminate all pain and sorrow and suffering. He has made me clean and I am alive in Him. I love my Saviour for His merciful sacrifice and I praise my Father for His merciful plan. I've learned to "consider the lillies" and that our Heavenly Father is merciful towards us, His children. He made a plan in which He asked us to have faith in Him and that then, if we believe and follow Him, He will extend many blessings and we will feel His love more fully.
I feel His love. I follow Him and I love Him with my whole heart. I know He loves me because He shows me His love each day in all of the various things we do and see and feel. I try to live each day to feel that love and to earn my place in Heaven with Him. I know this is possible and that the promise is real. I feel it with my whole soul and I know, that even when the days seem too hard to overcome, He is helping me make steps forward toward Him. I want you to know that I know these things. I know you to know them, too. Remember who you are! Remember God's love. Search to feel it everyday. I know He waits for each of us, with arms wide open, to greet us: ''welcome home." I long for that day and for the peace that I will feel then. That gives me hope to overcome anything!
I hope you feel of my love for you, because I love you with everything that I am. I pray for you and have hope in the answers to those prayers. Please don't ever give up. Ever. There is always hope. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Sorella Carlock
Eva, I love your blue hair! It looks cool! Remember to look at hairstyles for me when I come home. All for long hair, though, because I'm not cutting it again.
Tanney, I'm happy you got back to Utah safely after that huge delay. Sorry you had to sleep in the airport like a hobo. That's not fun- but you're back and safe now! Good!
Mommy, I'm sorry that you haven't heard anything about the job and that your other job has been having some little issues. That stinks. I'm still praying though!
Basically, I'm still in a weird spot. Just really pesante, ''heavy'', as the Italians say. A lot of weight on my shoulders and I've been feeling just that, really weighed down. I'm just spent of all my energy. I'm going to need a lot of sleep when I get home. I really am OK though -- I function just fine, I'm not like going to fall over dead at any point and I still have my sense of humor, but you know what I mean? sometimes I just feel a weight on me. I'm still trying to do my best and I continue to be obedient and diligent. I'm doing all right.
Thank you, Mommy, for your email. It really helped me. I think you must constantly have revelations for me and what you need to say. You have to because you always say the right thing. You're my mom, so you just get it. Thank you! I cried a little when I read the email and it felt kind of nice. You understood me and supported me while telling me I need to keep going. Thank you :) I'm happy...
I want you all to know that regardless of how I am feeling or what trials He gives us that I know that God's love is real. It is the power that moves everything, the power that created the earth and the heavens. It was the reason The Plan of Salvation was brought forth and it's the means for fulfilling its purpose. Through that love, we exist and we are known. I know Heavenly Father knows me personally and I know Him, too, through prayer. He is our Father in a very literal sense and He wants us to know Him. He loves us so much that He sent His Son to atone, to erase, to eliminate all pain and sorrow and suffering. He has made me clean and I am alive in Him. I love my Saviour for His merciful sacrifice and I praise my Father for His merciful plan. I've learned to "consider the lillies" and that our Heavenly Father is merciful towards us, His children. He made a plan in which He asked us to have faith in Him and that then, if we believe and follow Him, He will extend many blessings and we will feel His love more fully.
I feel His love. I follow Him and I love Him with my whole heart. I know He loves me because He shows me His love each day in all of the various things we do and see and feel. I try to live each day to feel that love and to earn my place in Heaven with Him. I know this is possible and that the promise is real. I feel it with my whole soul and I know, that even when the days seem too hard to overcome, He is helping me make steps forward toward Him. I want you to know that I know these things. I know you to know them, too. Remember who you are! Remember God's love. Search to feel it everyday. I know He waits for each of us, with arms wide open, to greet us: ''welcome home." I long for that day and for the peace that I will feel then. That gives me hope to overcome anything!
I hope you feel of my love for you, because I love you with everything that I am. I pray for you and have hope in the answers to those prayers. Please don't ever give up. Ever. There is always hope. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Sorella Carlock
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Sixty-nine: August 27, 2014 Bologna
I'm sorry, in advance, for my email this week. I'm kind of in a giant, mumble jumble of emotions. So, I'll just explain how the week went.
President, at the new missionary training, gave all of the new missionaries and their trainers the challenge to teach 21 lessons in their first full week -- this last week. We accepted the challenge and got to work. It was a week of complete finding. Really tiring, but really great, too.
We got to Saturday and we had only 13 lessons, 8 lessons left in one day seemed pretty impossible.
In church on Sunday, we taught Gospel Principles. At church, we had about 5 lessons. On the way home for lunch, 1 more lesson. Just 2 more.
We went home and had lunch. I was having trouble feeling the Spirit or feeling comfortable in the house, so we tidied up a bit and everything felt much more peaceful. We went back out, 2 lessons to go. Easy right? Yeah, no.
A lesson consists of teaching a principle like the Restoration and saying 2 prayers. NO ONE WOULD PRAY WITH US! They'd talk to us and listen, but no one would pray. It was about 8:30pm and we had 1 more lesson to give. 1 down with about 30 min - 1 hr to go. 9:15 came around on Sunday night, and we had our last lesson. 21 lessons. Real finding, guided by the Spirit. Diligence, pushing ourselves, and real progress. Our week was pretty great if you ask me.
We did it. We did what was asked of us and we now have a more solid testimony of the power of prayer and the power of our faith.
---
It is so great to hear about all of the thing you have been doing. You are all doing so much and things have changed. Very cool! And you applied for that job right in time! How cool is that? With the buildings close together, It would be perfect! I hope you get it! Mom, I am excited about this new job possibility. I think it'll be great. I'll pray! Let me know how it goes. I guess you're both getting all ready for school and everything. How weird! But, I'm sure it's nice to have something to do.
I'm kind of in a really weird spot. So close and really far. I'm supposed to be focused, but everyone keeps talking about me coming home and I need to think about it enough to mentally prepare, but I'm trying not to get distracted.
Other than that, I'm well. I'm exercising every day and we're trying to be healthy. We are trying to be as diligent as possible, which I'm not really sure what that means and where the line is for how much one can physically do, but I'm trying to push that line. We are pretty much building this area up from nothing, so it's definitely tough work. We're doing OK though.
We still are trying to figure out how to get around this city and how the bus system works. It's a lot more involved than it seems.
I'm really trying to be a good trainer. I dont know how well I'm doing and I don't know if I'm who I need to be for Sorella Stott, but I'm trying. I want to give her a good basis for the mission and to help her rely on this time to know what to do when things get hard. I want her to be able to depend on me, as a companion and as a friend.
Mission life is hard sometimes; in fact, I didn't really understand how hard it would be. I don't think anyone does though, but I'm doing ok for now. Right now, I'd say I'm sitting pretty. Especially compared to what it's been like in the past. I wouldn't trade this precious and sacred year and a half for anything. This is so much more than I would have ever been able to imagine. Heavenly Father has fulfilled all of my hopes for myself and continues to fulfill my dreams and hopes for you all and for our family.
I pray every night that you will be blessed because of the things I am doing here, and I hope you are being blessed.
Please know that I love you. In large part, I am doing this for you all so that I might be more of a help in our family, more of a builder of faith than a prodigal son. Thank you for your love and your patience. This week, I have a full, grateful heart. Words don't express. Thank you. I love you with everything that I am. As we say in Italian, non vedo l'ora di vedervi di nuovo. I don't see the hour to see you again. (it's like saying I cant wait, but that's not right because I can, I just don't see the hour, but it'll be great when it happens.)
I'm finishing strong. I can feel it. And it feels great. Hard, but great.
I love you all ;)
Sorella Carlock
President, at the new missionary training, gave all of the new missionaries and their trainers the challenge to teach 21 lessons in their first full week -- this last week. We accepted the challenge and got to work. It was a week of complete finding. Really tiring, but really great, too.
We got to Saturday and we had only 13 lessons, 8 lessons left in one day seemed pretty impossible.
In church on Sunday, we taught Gospel Principles. At church, we had about 5 lessons. On the way home for lunch, 1 more lesson. Just 2 more.
We went home and had lunch. I was having trouble feeling the Spirit or feeling comfortable in the house, so we tidied up a bit and everything felt much more peaceful. We went back out, 2 lessons to go. Easy right? Yeah, no.
A lesson consists of teaching a principle like the Restoration and saying 2 prayers. NO ONE WOULD PRAY WITH US! They'd talk to us and listen, but no one would pray. It was about 8:30pm and we had 1 more lesson to give. 1 down with about 30 min - 1 hr to go. 9:15 came around on Sunday night, and we had our last lesson. 21 lessons. Real finding, guided by the Spirit. Diligence, pushing ourselves, and real progress. Our week was pretty great if you ask me.
We did it. We did what was asked of us and we now have a more solid testimony of the power of prayer and the power of our faith.
---
It is so great to hear about all of the thing you have been doing. You are all doing so much and things have changed. Very cool! And you applied for that job right in time! How cool is that? With the buildings close together, It would be perfect! I hope you get it! Mom, I am excited about this new job possibility. I think it'll be great. I'll pray! Let me know how it goes. I guess you're both getting all ready for school and everything. How weird! But, I'm sure it's nice to have something to do.
I'm kind of in a really weird spot. So close and really far. I'm supposed to be focused, but everyone keeps talking about me coming home and I need to think about it enough to mentally prepare, but I'm trying not to get distracted.
Other than that, I'm well. I'm exercising every day and we're trying to be healthy. We are trying to be as diligent as possible, which I'm not really sure what that means and where the line is for how much one can physically do, but I'm trying to push that line. We are pretty much building this area up from nothing, so it's definitely tough work. We're doing OK though.
We still are trying to figure out how to get around this city and how the bus system works. It's a lot more involved than it seems.
I'm really trying to be a good trainer. I dont know how well I'm doing and I don't know if I'm who I need to be for Sorella Stott, but I'm trying. I want to give her a good basis for the mission and to help her rely on this time to know what to do when things get hard. I want her to be able to depend on me, as a companion and as a friend.
Mission life is hard sometimes; in fact, I didn't really understand how hard it would be. I don't think anyone does though, but I'm doing ok for now. Right now, I'd say I'm sitting pretty. Especially compared to what it's been like in the past. I wouldn't trade this precious and sacred year and a half for anything. This is so much more than I would have ever been able to imagine. Heavenly Father has fulfilled all of my hopes for myself and continues to fulfill my dreams and hopes for you all and for our family.
I pray every night that you will be blessed because of the things I am doing here, and I hope you are being blessed.
Please know that I love you. In large part, I am doing this for you all so that I might be more of a help in our family, more of a builder of faith than a prodigal son. Thank you for your love and your patience. This week, I have a full, grateful heart. Words don't express. Thank you. I love you with everything that I am. As we say in Italian, non vedo l'ora di vedervi di nuovo. I don't see the hour to see you again. (it's like saying I cant wait, but that's not right because I can, I just don't see the hour, but it'll be great when it happens.)
I'm finishing strong. I can feel it. And it feels great. Hard, but great.
I love you all ;)
Sorella Carlock
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Sixty-eight: August 20, 2014 Bologna
Come butta??
That is slang for ''whats up''
Good stuff is happening!! Good stuff.
It hit me the other day that I have only 11 weeks left...aka 2 1/2 months. It only hit me because another sorella in my group said something, I'm not really thinking about it at all. I think about my future....like at minimum a year from now, but I don't think about going home. I do think about hugging you all...that's about it. Well anyway, it was a weird thought because it hurt so much. The idea of not doing this for the rest of my life, full-time, kinda stinks! This is the life, real life, how we should all be living...out of the world, sacrificing time and effort to spread the word of God...although I could do with a nap sometimes and maybe wearing pants...yeah or not...skirts are fine.
But anyway, I say that because the thought was so foreign and it like didn't make sense to think about going home...especially in a positive way. I like what I'm doing here.
Sorella Stott and I have found 3 new investigators in our time together and that's including the week in August where EVERYONE GOES SOUTH...why? Migration, I don't know. But August makes North Italy a ghost town and we still found people with honest hearts. In fact, we set a baptismal date with a filipina today! October 11th, dad's birthday! She's going to make it. She is so ready and we felt the Spirit strongly in that lesson. I believe she can do it! We all do.
Speaking of baptisms, Virginia was baptized yesterday!!!! She is our investigator from Vicenza, mamma mia. She is so brava. She solidified my testimony that people can change! She completely!!!!! completely changed her life. I got to call her and wish her a happy day and it was nice. She thanked me...but I don't get why, I really don't. She did it all.
Basically, we are doing a lot of finding work....all day, every day...and its hard but we are enjoying it. We're finding the people that are ready and that's a lot better than having people that don't want to change. We're seeing the Lord's hand in our lives. So great.
Sorella Stott and I are doing well together I think. She's funny. I think sometimes she gets frustrated and I hope I'm not doing anything to make her feel bad. I know I was always frustrated at the beginning so she seems to be handling everything a lot better than I did. But I think she's doing so well. She is a hard worker, and she learns very quickly. I'm really glad she is my companion. She's very obedient too and she loves finding which makes me love it more...oh hey, I love finding now! I'M A FINDING MISSIONARY...what a miracle that is.
See? I just needed trials to be prepared for the blessing.
Mom I am so glad saying that helped you. Its really true. Ive seen that so much here. I don't get the blessing until I am humble and patient...its not when I say ''whatever, I don't care anymore'', it comes when I say ''Ok, patience, I can wait. His time'' Then it comes and it is great!
Thank you for your love and your prayers. I feel them. I hope you feel mine. I'm working hard here in hope that Heavenly Father has mercy on you all and gives you the things that you ask Him for. Please know that I love you and am so proud of all you are doing. You are amazing examples to me and I love you with my whole heart.
I know God lives and He loves us, more than we can imagine or take in. He is there. He is our Father! He wants to hear from you.
I love you. Be good.
Sorella Carlock
That is slang for ''whats up''
Good stuff is happening!! Good stuff.
It hit me the other day that I have only 11 weeks left...aka 2 1/2 months. It only hit me because another sorella in my group said something, I'm not really thinking about it at all. I think about my future....like at minimum a year from now, but I don't think about going home. I do think about hugging you all...that's about it. Well anyway, it was a weird thought because it hurt so much. The idea of not doing this for the rest of my life, full-time, kinda stinks! This is the life, real life, how we should all be living...out of the world, sacrificing time and effort to spread the word of God...although I could do with a nap sometimes and maybe wearing pants...yeah or not...skirts are fine.
But anyway, I say that because the thought was so foreign and it like didn't make sense to think about going home...especially in a positive way. I like what I'm doing here.
Sorella Stott and I have found 3 new investigators in our time together and that's including the week in August where EVERYONE GOES SOUTH...why? Migration, I don't know. But August makes North Italy a ghost town and we still found people with honest hearts. In fact, we set a baptismal date with a filipina today! October 11th, dad's birthday! She's going to make it. She is so ready and we felt the Spirit strongly in that lesson. I believe she can do it! We all do.
Speaking of baptisms, Virginia was baptized yesterday!!!! She is our investigator from Vicenza, mamma mia. She is so brava. She solidified my testimony that people can change! She completely!!!!! completely changed her life. I got to call her and wish her a happy day and it was nice. She thanked me...but I don't get why, I really don't. She did it all.
Basically, we are doing a lot of finding work....all day, every day...and its hard but we are enjoying it. We're finding the people that are ready and that's a lot better than having people that don't want to change. We're seeing the Lord's hand in our lives. So great.
Sorella Stott and I are doing well together I think. She's funny. I think sometimes she gets frustrated and I hope I'm not doing anything to make her feel bad. I know I was always frustrated at the beginning so she seems to be handling everything a lot better than I did. But I think she's doing so well. She is a hard worker, and she learns very quickly. I'm really glad she is my companion. She's very obedient too and she loves finding which makes me love it more...oh hey, I love finding now! I'M A FINDING MISSIONARY...what a miracle that is.
See? I just needed trials to be prepared for the blessing.
Mom I am so glad saying that helped you. Its really true. Ive seen that so much here. I don't get the blessing until I am humble and patient...its not when I say ''whatever, I don't care anymore'', it comes when I say ''Ok, patience, I can wait. His time'' Then it comes and it is great!
Thank you for your love and your prayers. I feel them. I hope you feel mine. I'm working hard here in hope that Heavenly Father has mercy on you all and gives you the things that you ask Him for. Please know that I love you and am so proud of all you are doing. You are amazing examples to me and I love you with my whole heart.
I know God lives and He loves us, more than we can imagine or take in. He is there. He is our Father! He wants to hear from you.
I love you. Be good.
Sorella Carlock
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Sixty-seven: August 13, 2014 Bologna
This has been a pretty awesome week! Just saying!
It started out with a lot of nerves. From Saturday to Thursday, after I met my new companion, I was all butterflies and stomach churns. I didn't sleep. No joke. I kept waking up and tossing. I was sooo nervous.
Thursday morning we woke up at 4:45 to get to the train station for a 6:25 train. We got to Milano, and another sorella and I went to the church to meet with President before we met the new missionaries. He said some amazing things. He said that the missionaries were already praying for us and that they have such a strong spirit. It is so true.
After a while, they all walked into the room. We "old timers got sooo excited. President had them recite something, and then we trainers got up and recited to them D&C 4. It was such an enriching moment because we were saying, directly to new missionaries, (I can't fully remember it in English) ''Behold a marvelous is about to come forth among the children of men...all ye that desire to serve God are called to the work.'' Just a beautiful moment, and a great reflection for us on our purpose as trainers and how we need to help them.
We all stood up, and the trainers were called up to announce who they would be assigned to as companions. I went 5th out of 12 sisters.
''Hi, I'm Sorella Carlock, and we're going to be serving in Bologna. I've never been there, but I've heard the members are great. Be prepared, because we're going to work hard!''
My companion's name is Sorella Stott. SHE IS AMAZING! She's from Twin Falls, Idaho and she's only 19! I feel really old. She's beautiful, beautiful! And so kind. When I saw here, I was just like ''come here you!'' Ha, ha.
She's also really tall...sooooo yeah ha ha. I'm short, I know.
We started right away by talking to people on the way home and by testifying. She did so great. We talked to 2 women on the train, and then we split and we each talked to one. She explained the Book of Mormon perfectly. I was impressed.
We're having a good time here in Bologna. I'm still in the same zone as Vicenza, so that's cool, but it's a different region of Italy, so it's a different culture. Its beautiful, and active, and Bolognese sauce comes from here -- ovvio!!! :)
We're doing well. I feel motivated and more committed. I felt committed before, but now I just feel so light and not so heavy. I feel like the Lord will help us do anything.
I love Sorella Stott because she bears POWERFUL testimony, and I am seeing the mission with new eyes. Man, I love this place. I LOVE BEING A MISSIONARY! It's never going to end, right? Ha ha. I wouldn't rather be anywhere else but here with my companion. It just shows you. Heavenly Father really knows...and CARES! Not just as if He knows what we need and witholds it. NO, He WANTS to bless us....BUT we need to be ready first. We need to be prepared for the blessings and sometimes that means some trials and hardships. Clever. Very smart.
We're trying to figure out the city together. It's been ok so far...we've wandered around some and I imagine that could be frustrating, but I haven't heard any complaints...Sorella Stott is all positivity. She's trying to talk to people and we do a lot of Italian ''prep'' for finding.
In the beginning of my mission, I remember not feeling like I could say anything, so I didn't want to try. I don't want that for her. We have been writing out little phrases and questions so that she can open her mouth and invite the Spirit (D&C 100: 5-8). She's such a good sport. Ive also been helping her write out what she wants to say in lessons, because I feel that her being comfortable is more important than having something memorized. She needs to feel at ease and the the Spirit will come. I want her to know that she can do it, so we're trying to prepare more fully for lessons. She does really well with Italian though. She's pretty solid.
Well, I don't have much else to say. I love it here. ALL UP! Except I'm exhausted. Everything else, even that, is wonderful. It's a part of the missionary life. Well...I guess one thing is bad. Our ankles are swelling...like last year, remember? ha ha. Any help??
Also, if you can think of some good, simple exercises that I can do, any help would be appreciated!!
I love you all.
I think moving to the beach would be perfect, Mommy. You go for it, girl!!! You do what you want! I love you. Thank you for always thinking of me and wanting me around even if I can't be. Thank you for loving me.
Eva, you're so dang cute!! SOOOOOO CUTE! Thank you for your testimony story.
Tanner, I love you and am so proud of you. I think of your example always and try to follow your footsteps. You make it all seem possible. Thank you!
Favor for the week (because there always seems to be something I ask of you): Can you apply for classes for me?? The due date is the 24th of August and I really want to get that done. Please sign me up....I trust your judgment. I gave some suggestions. Just go for it :)
I love you all. I pray for you. I miss you just enough to want to stay here and send some blessings your way. I'll have some gelato in your honor :)
LOVE YOU FOREVER :)
Sorella Lo Carlock
It started out with a lot of nerves. From Saturday to Thursday, after I met my new companion, I was all butterflies and stomach churns. I didn't sleep. No joke. I kept waking up and tossing. I was sooo nervous.
Thursday morning we woke up at 4:45 to get to the train station for a 6:25 train. We got to Milano, and another sorella and I went to the church to meet with President before we met the new missionaries. He said some amazing things. He said that the missionaries were already praying for us and that they have such a strong spirit. It is so true.
After a while, they all walked into the room. We "old timers got sooo excited. President had them recite something, and then we trainers got up and recited to them D&C 4. It was such an enriching moment because we were saying, directly to new missionaries, (I can't fully remember it in English) ''Behold a marvelous is about to come forth among the children of men...all ye that desire to serve God are called to the work.'' Just a beautiful moment, and a great reflection for us on our purpose as trainers and how we need to help them.
We all stood up, and the trainers were called up to announce who they would be assigned to as companions. I went 5th out of 12 sisters.
''Hi, I'm Sorella Carlock, and we're going to be serving in Bologna. I've never been there, but I've heard the members are great. Be prepared, because we're going to work hard!''
My companion's name is Sorella Stott. SHE IS AMAZING! She's from Twin Falls, Idaho and she's only 19! I feel really old. She's beautiful, beautiful! And so kind. When I saw here, I was just like ''come here you!'' Ha, ha.
She's also really tall...sooooo yeah ha ha. I'm short, I know.
We started right away by talking to people on the way home and by testifying. She did so great. We talked to 2 women on the train, and then we split and we each talked to one. She explained the Book of Mormon perfectly. I was impressed.
We're having a good time here in Bologna. I'm still in the same zone as Vicenza, so that's cool, but it's a different region of Italy, so it's a different culture. Its beautiful, and active, and Bolognese sauce comes from here -- ovvio!!! :)
We're doing well. I feel motivated and more committed. I felt committed before, but now I just feel so light and not so heavy. I feel like the Lord will help us do anything.
I love Sorella Stott because she bears POWERFUL testimony, and I am seeing the mission with new eyes. Man, I love this place. I LOVE BEING A MISSIONARY! It's never going to end, right? Ha ha. I wouldn't rather be anywhere else but here with my companion. It just shows you. Heavenly Father really knows...and CARES! Not just as if He knows what we need and witholds it. NO, He WANTS to bless us....BUT we need to be ready first. We need to be prepared for the blessings and sometimes that means some trials and hardships. Clever. Very smart.
We're trying to figure out the city together. It's been ok so far...we've wandered around some and I imagine that could be frustrating, but I haven't heard any complaints...Sorella Stott is all positivity. She's trying to talk to people and we do a lot of Italian ''prep'' for finding.
In the beginning of my mission, I remember not feeling like I could say anything, so I didn't want to try. I don't want that for her. We have been writing out little phrases and questions so that she can open her mouth and invite the Spirit (D&C 100: 5-8). She's such a good sport. Ive also been helping her write out what she wants to say in lessons, because I feel that her being comfortable is more important than having something memorized. She needs to feel at ease and the the Spirit will come. I want her to know that she can do it, so we're trying to prepare more fully for lessons. She does really well with Italian though. She's pretty solid.
Well, I don't have much else to say. I love it here. ALL UP! Except I'm exhausted. Everything else, even that, is wonderful. It's a part of the missionary life. Well...I guess one thing is bad. Our ankles are swelling...like last year, remember? ha ha. Any help??
Also, if you can think of some good, simple exercises that I can do, any help would be appreciated!!
I love you all.
I think moving to the beach would be perfect, Mommy. You go for it, girl!!! You do what you want! I love you. Thank you for always thinking of me and wanting me around even if I can't be. Thank you for loving me.
Eva, you're so dang cute!! SOOOOOO CUTE! Thank you for your testimony story.
Tanner, I love you and am so proud of you. I think of your example always and try to follow your footsteps. You make it all seem possible. Thank you!
Favor for the week (because there always seems to be something I ask of you): Can you apply for classes for me?? The due date is the 24th of August and I really want to get that done. Please sign me up....I trust your judgment. I gave some suggestions. Just go for it :)
I love you all. I pray for you. I miss you just enough to want to stay here and send some blessings your way. I'll have some gelato in your honor :)
LOVE YOU FOREVER :)
Sorella Lo Carlock
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Sixty-six: August 6, 2014 Vicenza
Well, transfers are this week....I'm leaving Vicenza. Im really sad. Sorella Richards and I are splitting up, too. I really love her a lot and I am so glad I had this time with her. I know we're going to be friends after this.
That's not the big news though....President called me on Saturday and told me that I'm going to be training a new missionary. I'M TRAINING! I am so shocked and surprised. I am really nervous and sooo so so excited. I think it'll be such a great opportunity for me. It'll help me stay focused and keep me on my toes. WOOHOO!
Well, that's pretty much all of the news I have for this week really.
Its been the longest 5 days of my life. We said goodbye to everyone we visit and it was just amazing...too many tears though! I guess another thing is that they are taking sisters out of Vicenza...so this will now be the second time I leave a city and they take sisters out and the third time they close my coppia. Not really sure how to think or feel about that, so I'm not thinking or feeling too much...ha ha! Heavenly Father knows what he is doing!!! MENO MALE! I trust Him.
Im really sad that Sorella Richards and I are splitting, but I think we've built a really solid friendship and we'll be friends after the mission, too. Not to worry! :)
---
Thank you so much to everyone for all of the pictures and emails. I had 40 emails when I opened my box today!!! WOW! Ha ha. Mostly pictures...WHICH IS AWESOME. You have no idea how special a picture is here. Thank you! Thank you for updating me on future plans and family events. I really love hearing about all of this stuff.
Tanney, I am so amazed at all of the wonderful things you are planning. It sounds like a lovely day. ;) You are doing amazing things. You set such a wonderful example to me and everyone around you. You are teaching me so much about diligence and hard work.
Eva, you are such a great teacher and leader....you're really growing a lot. I am thoroughly and pleasantly not surprised :) You're just amazing. Recognize your Worth!!! You are going to be a great missionary...WOW!
Mommy, how do you feel now that school is over?? Are you getting enough time to relax? Thank you so much for all of your support. I love PDay because your emails Always uplift me and make me feel so good about who I am and what I'm doing....and how far I've come.
----
Mommy, I think your World Languages idea is awesome. Is there any way we could figure something out to where I could start with online classes that can transfer to SVU?? I want to still follow the law school thing for now, and work towards something like Social Services. But, I want to do languages, too. WHY NOT??? GREAT IDEA. 10 points to MOMMY!
Well I have 3 months left. I hope when I count down you don't think its because I'm jumping out of my skin to come home. To me, its more of a way to track progress....to tell myself I can do this. Ebeneezers, no? 15 months down! WOW! I never would've guessed, EVER, that I could have made it here...Just think...2 years ago, I was going in a completely different direction...sort of. I certainly wasn't preparing properly...now look at me! Can't you see the bags under my eyes, IM OLD! Ha ha, I'm an old missionary, and I couldn't be more proud...except pride is a sin ;) :) Just know that I am doing great! I am happy. I am loving Italy!
I am so happy and so committed to being here. We have already had 7 lessons this week and we'll have 2 more today. Still working hard. And I'm going to be working even harder. This last few months and these transfers with the new sorella are going to be full of miracles and change. Get ready for some great stories!!
I love you all with my whole heart.
I pray for you every night
BE GOOD!!!!
That's not the big news though....President called me on Saturday and told me that I'm going to be training a new missionary. I'M TRAINING! I am so shocked and surprised. I am really nervous and sooo so so excited. I think it'll be such a great opportunity for me. It'll help me stay focused and keep me on my toes. WOOHOO!
Well, that's pretty much all of the news I have for this week really.
Its been the longest 5 days of my life. We said goodbye to everyone we visit and it was just amazing...too many tears though! I guess another thing is that they are taking sisters out of Vicenza...so this will now be the second time I leave a city and they take sisters out and the third time they close my coppia. Not really sure how to think or feel about that, so I'm not thinking or feeling too much...ha ha! Heavenly Father knows what he is doing!!! MENO MALE! I trust Him.
Im really sad that Sorella Richards and I are splitting, but I think we've built a really solid friendship and we'll be friends after the mission, too. Not to worry! :)
---
Thank you so much to everyone for all of the pictures and emails. I had 40 emails when I opened my box today!!! WOW! Ha ha. Mostly pictures...WHICH IS AWESOME. You have no idea how special a picture is here. Thank you! Thank you for updating me on future plans and family events. I really love hearing about all of this stuff.
Tanney, I am so amazed at all of the wonderful things you are planning. It sounds like a lovely day. ;) You are doing amazing things. You set such a wonderful example to me and everyone around you. You are teaching me so much about diligence and hard work.
Eva, you are such a great teacher and leader....you're really growing a lot. I am thoroughly and pleasantly not surprised :) You're just amazing. Recognize your Worth!!! You are going to be a great missionary...WOW!
Mommy, how do you feel now that school is over?? Are you getting enough time to relax? Thank you so much for all of your support. I love PDay because your emails Always uplift me and make me feel so good about who I am and what I'm doing....and how far I've come.
----
Mommy, I think your World Languages idea is awesome. Is there any way we could figure something out to where I could start with online classes that can transfer to SVU?? I want to still follow the law school thing for now, and work towards something like Social Services. But, I want to do languages, too. WHY NOT??? GREAT IDEA. 10 points to MOMMY!
Well I have 3 months left. I hope when I count down you don't think its because I'm jumping out of my skin to come home. To me, its more of a way to track progress....to tell myself I can do this. Ebeneezers, no? 15 months down! WOW! I never would've guessed, EVER, that I could have made it here...Just think...2 years ago, I was going in a completely different direction...sort of. I certainly wasn't preparing properly...now look at me! Can't you see the bags under my eyes, IM OLD! Ha ha, I'm an old missionary, and I couldn't be more proud...except pride is a sin ;) :) Just know that I am doing great! I am happy. I am loving Italy!
I am so happy and so committed to being here. We have already had 7 lessons this week and we'll have 2 more today. Still working hard. And I'm going to be working even harder. This last few months and these transfers with the new sorella are going to be full of miracles and change. Get ready for some great stories!!
I love you all with my whole heart.
I pray for you every night
BE GOOD!!!!
Sixty-five: July 30, 2014 Vicenza
I just love P-Days. Do you know why? Because I get to write to you all!! This has been a great email session. So many wonderful things!!!
Thank you so much, Mommy, for your constant help. You are so diligent in getting things done...you're not one of those persons that say ''yeah yeah, we'll figure it out.'' You know I worry about these things and you take care of me. Thank you soooooooo much. YOU'RE THE BOMB!
I am sooo sorry that you fell. You're in a boot!!!?!?? Ouch. Is it hard getting up and down the stairs and everything? Be careful!
What else have you figured out about our trip to Italy? Any dates? Did you book it already or are you still thinking about it?
I do want to go to Bern for the temple. That has to be a part of it! Honestly, I think we'll end it being in Italy for about 10 days. But please make time for attending the Bern Temple and seeing the Rome temple grounds....we can say we were there! :)
----
I am so happy to hear that wedding plans are moving forward! I think its Amazing!!! Im glad Dad can offer his expertise. I think it'll be nice for everyone to at least say he had a part in it and that his touch made the evening nice. That'll be good.
----
THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of the research you did for online courses. I wish I could express my thanks with a big, fat kiss...but I'll get to do that in time. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
I understand what you're saying about the BYUI online thing...its just a transition. Ok, fine....but don't try to get me to actually go up there. No way...uh uh! ;)
Once I go back to school in the Fall with Eva, I want to pursue the psychology & sociology & pre law route. But for now, lets prepare for online school. YAY!
---
I'm so glad that you are almost done with school, Mom. It'll be nice to have a break! Eva is a YCL??? Dang she is so old. She's probably 6ft by now!
YANKEES! Yay. I bet you all had a great time- did you take pictures???
----------
Now here for the Lopo update.
Everything is going great here. We are trying to work hard- we have a bunch of referrals we need to contact and we have a lot to do! Its so nice. We are doing good things and we are seeing the blessings!
Sorella Richards and I have decided to speak practically only in Italian. I want to speak only in Italian for the next 2 transfers and so we're starting now so we can be ready.
President switched up how he does transfer calls...we get the call Saturday now, so by next PDay we'll have already heard about transfers. I really hope I stay with Sorella Richards for my last 2. We are doing GREAT THINGS and we fit together so well. We are a good team and I love her so much.
You won't believe this...but since she got here (5 wks ago), I have lost 10 lbs!!! From working out and being healthy. IT WORKS! ha ha. One of the elders here had an extra jump rope and he gave it to me....man, jumping rope is Amazing! I love it! I also have this elastic band from the MTC and these two things are incredibly useful. Im doing it! Im changing my life. all thanks to Sorella Richards and her motivation, example, and diligence.
We are doing really well here. Our investigator Virginia, who has a baptismal date, reminds me of the Brother of Jared when the Lord says, ''there has never been such great faith among all the children of men...and for these he could not be kept from seeing Beyond the veil''...summarization....but yeah! SHE'S SOOOOOOO GREAT. She has such faith.
We had to see her at 8am the other day and after our lesson with her, she stayed with us and we all did companion study together! Amazing. and soooo spiritual. I want to be like this with all of investigators!
Well I think that's it. I love your updates and hearing about what you all are doing. It makes me feel more motivated. We're doing great here, so it looks like we're all doing well except Mom's foot. Sorry Mommy!
Keep doing good things...and like I used to say, NEVER GIVE UP! This has been the hardest and most rewarding time of my life. I'm going to make it through, and its going to be amazing! :)
I know our Heavenly Father loves us. He is more than just a God, but our Father who wants us to make Him a part of our lives. I am reminded every day of the scripture ''consider the lillies''. He has control and for that, we dont need to fear. I know that He is taking care of us and that brings me peace-
Behold, I am a disciple of Jesus Christ, the Son of God....Eccomi qua in missione! Who would have thought that I, Me Zoe Jade Carlock, could get here? Well, Heavenly Father did, and I thank Him every day for His merciful plan for me.
Thank you for all of your love and support. I am sooo grateful that I get to be with you 3 forever. Thats something special. I cant wait to hug you again....well I can wait....but its going to be great!
Until next week,
Sorella Carlock
Thank you so much, Mommy, for your constant help. You are so diligent in getting things done...you're not one of those persons that say ''yeah yeah, we'll figure it out.'' You know I worry about these things and you take care of me. Thank you soooooooo much. YOU'RE THE BOMB!
I am sooo sorry that you fell. You're in a boot!!!?!?? Ouch. Is it hard getting up and down the stairs and everything? Be careful!
What else have you figured out about our trip to Italy? Any dates? Did you book it already or are you still thinking about it?
I do want to go to Bern for the temple. That has to be a part of it! Honestly, I think we'll end it being in Italy for about 10 days. But please make time for attending the Bern Temple and seeing the Rome temple grounds....we can say we were there! :)
----
I am so happy to hear that wedding plans are moving forward! I think its Amazing!!! Im glad Dad can offer his expertise. I think it'll be nice for everyone to at least say he had a part in it and that his touch made the evening nice. That'll be good.
----
THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of the research you did for online courses. I wish I could express my thanks with a big, fat kiss...but I'll get to do that in time. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!
I understand what you're saying about the BYUI online thing...its just a transition. Ok, fine....but don't try to get me to actually go up there. No way...uh uh! ;)
Once I go back to school in the Fall with Eva, I want to pursue the psychology & sociology & pre law route. But for now, lets prepare for online school. YAY!
---
I'm so glad that you are almost done with school, Mom. It'll be nice to have a break! Eva is a YCL??? Dang she is so old. She's probably 6ft by now!
YANKEES! Yay. I bet you all had a great time- did you take pictures???
----------
Now here for the Lopo update.
Everything is going great here. We are trying to work hard- we have a bunch of referrals we need to contact and we have a lot to do! Its so nice. We are doing good things and we are seeing the blessings!
Sorella Richards and I have decided to speak practically only in Italian. I want to speak only in Italian for the next 2 transfers and so we're starting now so we can be ready.
President switched up how he does transfer calls...we get the call Saturday now, so by next PDay we'll have already heard about transfers. I really hope I stay with Sorella Richards for my last 2. We are doing GREAT THINGS and we fit together so well. We are a good team and I love her so much.
You won't believe this...but since she got here (5 wks ago), I have lost 10 lbs!!! From working out and being healthy. IT WORKS! ha ha. One of the elders here had an extra jump rope and he gave it to me....man, jumping rope is Amazing! I love it! I also have this elastic band from the MTC and these two things are incredibly useful. Im doing it! Im changing my life. all thanks to Sorella Richards and her motivation, example, and diligence.
We are doing really well here. Our investigator Virginia, who has a baptismal date, reminds me of the Brother of Jared when the Lord says, ''there has never been such great faith among all the children of men...and for these he could not be kept from seeing Beyond the veil''...summarization....but yeah! SHE'S SOOOOOOO GREAT. She has such faith.
We had to see her at 8am the other day and after our lesson with her, she stayed with us and we all did companion study together! Amazing. and soooo spiritual. I want to be like this with all of investigators!
Well I think that's it. I love your updates and hearing about what you all are doing. It makes me feel more motivated. We're doing great here, so it looks like we're all doing well except Mom's foot. Sorry Mommy!
Keep doing good things...and like I used to say, NEVER GIVE UP! This has been the hardest and most rewarding time of my life. I'm going to make it through, and its going to be amazing! :)
I know our Heavenly Father loves us. He is more than just a God, but our Father who wants us to make Him a part of our lives. I am reminded every day of the scripture ''consider the lillies''. He has control and for that, we dont need to fear. I know that He is taking care of us and that brings me peace-
Behold, I am a disciple of Jesus Christ, the Son of God....Eccomi qua in missione! Who would have thought that I, Me Zoe Jade Carlock, could get here? Well, Heavenly Father did, and I thank Him every day for His merciful plan for me.
Thank you for all of your love and support. I am sooo grateful that I get to be with you 3 forever. Thats something special. I cant wait to hug you again....well I can wait....but its going to be great!
Until next week,
Sorella Carlock
Sixty-four: July 23, 2014 Vicenza
This has been such a great week. In the past 2 weeks we have found 3 families! SO GREAT....we didnt reach our 500 goal...not even close. But we talked to more people and I even jumped off my bike to go talk to someone! It has been soooo great.
----
These past weeks with Sorella Richards have been so great. My favorite transfer so far, other than the 2 when I was with Sorella Harward. Sorella Richards is changing my life and its all by example. She is so humble, kind, loving, funny, and sweet. She is a great missionary. We are really doing good finding work and trying to Always improve and be better. We are really becoming better missionaries.
I am not the same person I was when I left. I have completely changed. I'm happy. I don't snap at anyone. I'm nice and huggy. I want to help out and clean and I make some mean Italian food. I'm not the same. And I know that you all wont be the same. I want you to know that so that you can prepare to get to know me again. and I am excited to know you all again. But do know that, I wont be the same. I'm a woman of God, a servant of the Lord, and a pure and worthy temple recommend holder. I am Zoe Jade Carlock, and I'm a Mormon. ...
But really. I cant wait to get to know you all again.
And to think...after 3 more months how much more different I will be!!!! WOW. I have like so much to do in this time and I am so grateful Im still here to do it. Heavenly Father is so merciful. He is all-knowing and soooo loving. What a great Father. He has shaped and molded me into someone I have Always wanted to be, but I was so lost that I couldn't find the way.
Eva, you better prepare for a mission. It is going to change your life and you are going to love it. WOW!
--- I love you all. I pray for you Always and I hope that you are happy and being blessed.
You are my sunshines and I am happy that we can be together forever!
LOVE YOU
Sorella Carlock
----
These past weeks with Sorella Richards have been so great. My favorite transfer so far, other than the 2 when I was with Sorella Harward. Sorella Richards is changing my life and its all by example. She is so humble, kind, loving, funny, and sweet. She is a great missionary. We are really doing good finding work and trying to Always improve and be better. We are really becoming better missionaries.
I am not the same person I was when I left. I have completely changed. I'm happy. I don't snap at anyone. I'm nice and huggy. I want to help out and clean and I make some mean Italian food. I'm not the same. And I know that you all wont be the same. I want you to know that so that you can prepare to get to know me again. and I am excited to know you all again. But do know that, I wont be the same. I'm a woman of God, a servant of the Lord, and a pure and worthy temple recommend holder. I am Zoe Jade Carlock, and I'm a Mormon. ...
But really. I cant wait to get to know you all again.
And to think...after 3 more months how much more different I will be!!!! WOW. I have like so much to do in this time and I am so grateful Im still here to do it. Heavenly Father is so merciful. He is all-knowing and soooo loving. What a great Father. He has shaped and molded me into someone I have Always wanted to be, but I was so lost that I couldn't find the way.
Eva, you better prepare for a mission. It is going to change your life and you are going to love it. WOW!
--- I love you all. I pray for you Always and I hope that you are happy and being blessed.
You are my sunshines and I am happy that we can be together forever!
LOVE YOU
Sorella Carlock
Sixty-three: July 16, 2014 Vicenza
This has been a really great week! A lot has happened since last week.
I want you to come to all of the cities I've served in:
Milano
Genova
Vicenza
Then we NEED to see:
Venice
Rome
maybe Florence
Sorella Richards served there and she said its really dirty and not what we think, but it would be cool to go get leather bags or get our scriptures rebound there (that's where all the missionaries go to get their scriptures rebound).
The Bern temple.
I think we will have a wonderful experience. Italy will not be NEARLY as beautiful in Christmastime as it is now in July, BUT you will feel the Christmas spirit in a beautiful land and it will be the strongest you have ever felt in anywhere. Its powerful here. And maybe we'll have snow! Think of that. Snow in Italy- beautiful!
----
This has been a good week here in the mission field.
We have set a challenge between us and the Elders to talk to 500 people this week. We are at 31....but we are stopping everyone we can...when we aren't riding bikes. REALLY...everyone! Its so much fun! I don't even care when people reject us anymore...because I know I'm doing my part. I feel great! I don't care if we even reach 100...I just want to keep going and keep trying to find those who are ready!
ALSO! WE SET A BAPTISMAL DATE! We have been teaching this girl and trying to set a date with her since I got her in April...she's been investigating the church since she was like 12....she just turned 20.
She has quit smoking, she's exercising, she's reading 5 chapters a week of the Book of Mormon and trying to come to church (she lives 1 1/2 hrs away and works on Sunday in her family's restaurant)- She is sooo amazing. She understands what she reads and teaches us!! Her date is for August 22nd. I'm hoping to still be here for that! So amazing!!!!
---
I LOVE MY COMPANION! We have been exercising at night because we have trouble getting to it in the morning. But she is helping me be healthy...not skinny, but healthy. She is sweet and so committed to being a missionary. She stops so many people on the street and she tried really hard to say the right thing. She is a tender mercy...
I almost killed her though today...ha ha oops! We were hiking up to a castle on a mountain and it was hot and humid...on the way back down, we past a plum tree and she said she wanted fruit. Trees here in Italy, like olive or fruit trees grow out from the side of the mountain....like sideways---so this tree was kind of at the edge of a dropping point down the mountain. She said ''should I grab one?'' and I said ''yeah yeah you'll be fine. just do it''....well she gets close and goes to reach for a fruit and SLIPS DOWN THE SIDE OF THE MOUNTAIN!...LUCKILY, luckily...she slipped onto the path below us, that I didn't know was there, it was only about 4 feet down...
OMG, che orrore. I thought I had killed my companion...I almost jumped off the mountain after her.
Well, there is our P-Day adventure! Fun, right?
All good though, just a few splinters. Man, am I glad she didn't die.
--- Anyway. Its been a great week and I feel like its going to keep getting better. Thank you for your help with the genealogy and thanks for asking Dad about it. I'll email him .
I love you all sooo much
EMAIL ME SIBLINGS, what the heck :)
I love you all and pray for you every night! :)
Be good and keep being good examples
Let me know if you need anything from me or any more info about ....what ever thing
SORELLA LOPO
I want you to come to all of the cities I've served in:
Milano
Genova
Vicenza
Then we NEED to see:
Venice
Rome
maybe Florence
Sorella Richards served there and she said its really dirty and not what we think, but it would be cool to go get leather bags or get our scriptures rebound there (that's where all the missionaries go to get their scriptures rebound).
The Bern temple.
I think we will have a wonderful experience. Italy will not be NEARLY as beautiful in Christmastime as it is now in July, BUT you will feel the Christmas spirit in a beautiful land and it will be the strongest you have ever felt in anywhere. Its powerful here. And maybe we'll have snow! Think of that. Snow in Italy- beautiful!
----
This has been a good week here in the mission field.
We have set a challenge between us and the Elders to talk to 500 people this week. We are at 31....but we are stopping everyone we can...when we aren't riding bikes. REALLY...everyone! Its so much fun! I don't even care when people reject us anymore...because I know I'm doing my part. I feel great! I don't care if we even reach 100...I just want to keep going and keep trying to find those who are ready!
ALSO! WE SET A BAPTISMAL DATE! We have been teaching this girl and trying to set a date with her since I got her in April...she's been investigating the church since she was like 12....she just turned 20.
She has quit smoking, she's exercising, she's reading 5 chapters a week of the Book of Mormon and trying to come to church (she lives 1 1/2 hrs away and works on Sunday in her family's restaurant)- She is sooo amazing. She understands what she reads and teaches us!! Her date is for August 22nd. I'm hoping to still be here for that! So amazing!!!!
---
I LOVE MY COMPANION! We have been exercising at night because we have trouble getting to it in the morning. But she is helping me be healthy...not skinny, but healthy. She is sweet and so committed to being a missionary. She stops so many people on the street and she tried really hard to say the right thing. She is a tender mercy...
I almost killed her though today...ha ha oops! We were hiking up to a castle on a mountain and it was hot and humid...on the way back down, we past a plum tree and she said she wanted fruit. Trees here in Italy, like olive or fruit trees grow out from the side of the mountain....like sideways---so this tree was kind of at the edge of a dropping point down the mountain. She said ''should I grab one?'' and I said ''yeah yeah you'll be fine. just do it''....well she gets close and goes to reach for a fruit and SLIPS DOWN THE SIDE OF THE MOUNTAIN!...LUCKILY, luckily...she slipped onto the path below us, that I didn't know was there, it was only about 4 feet down...
OMG, che orrore. I thought I had killed my companion...I almost jumped off the mountain after her.
Well, there is our P-Day adventure! Fun, right?
All good though, just a few splinters. Man, am I glad she didn't die.
--- Anyway. Its been a great week and I feel like its going to keep getting better. Thank you for your help with the genealogy and thanks for asking Dad about it. I'll email him .
I love you all sooo much
EMAIL ME SIBLINGS, what the heck :)
I love you all and pray for you every night! :)
Be good and keep being good examples
Let me know if you need anything from me or any more info about ....what ever thing
SORELLA LOPO
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)