HEEELLLLLOOO!
So whats up? How has this week been? How is school and work?
Eva I love the shirt hair combo. Very cool.
Thanks for updating me on everything. It really helps me to know whats going on. That way I dont feel so isolated here.
I found out at a member's house about the Russia /Ukraine war...I had absolutely no idea. Not even an inkling. How are all of these things happening? And how is is that we don't know? Its amazing...the Lord protects us with all of these rules. Its so sad...when I heard all of the things this member was saying I wanted to cry. How many people have been put in danger? Its just sad. THAT KIND OF STUFF, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW...Id prefer really if it never happened. But anyway, I enjoy hearing about YOUR lives and what you are doing...pictures are even better... ;)
Its amazing really. I pray every morning for energy and strength and health, and I make it through each day. I get to the end. I know that that is made possible through Heavenly Father's power and through my faith in that power. I see miracles every day. The fact that I am still here and still going is a miracle. I'm going to need a lot of help when I go home...but I'm going to make it there, and its going to feel awesome. As Sorella Harward once said (something of the sort), ''even if I have to crawl into Heaven on my hands and knees, even if I'm the last one there...Ill get there'' I feel the same way. I'll get there.
I had an epiphany actually. I called the anziani for another blessing so that I could have some more strength...The anziano that answered said, well how are you?, and I said I'm still walking Anziano, I'm ok as long as I'm still walking. It's true. Even in merit to the Gospel...as long as you're still on the path, bloody and bruised...maybe missing a leg or all of your teeth from smacking your head against the same wall over and over and over again, at least you're still walking on that path. There is always room to improve, but you cant improve if you arent on the path...going in the right direction of course.
Well...I have to say, I love my companion...I realized the other day...I think she kinda likes me too...I wasn't sure what she was thinking before, but at least I know she doesn't want to kill me...I hope ha ha. She is just so sweet and humble and I really like her. She's so patient with me, especially now when I'm having such a hard time. I want to be better for her, to help her make the best of this time. She's a really powerful missionary, its amazing.
I don't really have much to talk about. We don't have hardly any work right now. When we came in, it was pretty empty and now everyone that we found is kind of disappearing...SO back to square 1! We can handle it. Ive done this before! Talk about the mission preparing you for life...I feel like I have the same experiences over again here...its like I need to use them again or something. :)
Well...I'm going to talk about how long I have left for just a minute...then, I want us all to not talk about it anymore...at least as much as possible.
I counted the other day...I have 51 days left in the mission. 51. On Monday night, I realized that 1 month and 1/2 is fairly short and I just started crying and crying and praying to be able to make the most of it. It really hit me. I just filled with such a heart wrenching pain...it hurt! I never want to feel that again..but unfortunately, I will have to. I want to make the most of this short short time. I want to give my all. I am going to need you to not talk about me going home. Ill try my best too. Obviously, we can say 'cant wait to see you'' or we can talk about necessary plans...but I really don't want to think about it. If I can forget myself and forget my health and this reality and give it all...coming home will be sweet. Please support me in this. PLEASE, tell me everything... talk about your lives and missionary work and I will talk about mine. I have felt the missionary spirit and I need it to keep going while I am a full-time missionary. I know we're all excited, heck Im so excited to hug you all...but I just ask that we talk about it when I'm home.
I love you all and I know you understand this. I miss you more than ever right now. I could really use a solid hug and an oatmeal cookie with a side of WAFFLE CRISP!!! WHAT WHAT! But I can wait, we can wait. Then when we get together again and we say ''we did it!'' we can also say ''we left everything behind, wasn't that worth it''
ok, moment over :) I love the mission. I love how hard it is and how much I have to push myself. I love every single moment and every single heartache. I love those mistakes I made because I learned from them, and I became something better. I love my Saviour. Luckily, He loves me too! There is nothing more fulfilling than missionary work. We're teaching a lesson today about missionary work using Alma 29: 9... ''that might be an instrument in bringing [someone unto the Lord] and this is my joy''. THIS IS MY JOY!!! THis is who I am...I have found who I am here and I have found the path to who I can become.
I cant wait to see you all again...well I can...but there isnt a better way to say it...Im REEEEAAALLY looking forward to seeing you and hugging you :)
I love you all with my whole soul, with everything that I am. I pray for you and live for you each day. I know that you will be blessed through my service. That is my great hope! I love you. I love you. I love you :)
Sorella Carlock
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